Memories ♥

Valentines Day. :)

2012-02-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentines Day, everyone! May everyone be bless with love, love and love in this Feb 14th. :)

Thank you to everyone who loved, loves and loving me. Thank you for all the sweet memories that we created together. Thank you :)

XOXO, JL.

Choir!

2012-01-15T08:49:00.000+08:00

My college is currently having the Mini KAKOM where all games will be played as a competition between hostel blocks. It really is a hot season! ;)

I auditioned for Choir and entered something more indoors. The first meeting was.... Not-so-good. But hey! Look where are we now. It's just awesome. Glad they take in advices. =)

I have the feeling we're gonna BOOOOOMMM the college for sure. Our songs are currently PNC though. XD

Just to keep up with the CNY atmosphere, I think my previous post is a little too cold. So yeah, this is a better one. :)

P/S: I'm glad I did well in my MUET examinations. Thank you to everyone who has never stop believing and supporting me! =)

Gonna watch Laughing Gor: Turning Point today. :D

XOXO, JL.

The 500th.

2012-01-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

Well.. It's my 500th post. Too bad it's not going to be a good one.

I remember how she smiled proudly when he got it. Everyone was so happy. The joy just filled the air. At that moment, I knew, I had to work ten times harder. It's not like I didn't. I think I did. I studied very hard and I don't think my result is that bad. But sometimes, you just have to admit that it's fated. It's just not meant to be.

I know how they feel. How everyone expect that I'll be there but I'm actually just here. How I'm not the topic of their joyful conversation. I've learnt to be strong. I've learnt to accept the fact. I've learnt to say "I'm okay" when really, I'm not. I can't be a cry baby over the same matter. I know I have to grow up and accept.

While others may think that it can't be that bad here, I hope you know it's not easy either. Sometimes, I do agree. At least, I've learnt the hard way to be independent. This time around... I'm guessing everyone will be talking about it.

I'm really sorry that I didn't make you feel proud then. I tried, I really did. Today, your actions/ your tone really hurt me. The fact that you weren't doing anything and you just want to end the call after how I excitedly told you about my trip. I'm guessing it's a rough day for you. Sorry that I can't be there.

I hope I'm thinking too much. But... Why do I feel this bad if it's just a thought? Don't get me wrong. I've always known that I'm considered very lucky if I were to compare with many others.

Please let me live my dreams.

XOXO, JL.

2012.

2011-12-30T14:14:00.000+08:00

In just another one day or so, 2011 will come to an end and 2012 is the start of a new chapter.

No doubt, 2011 has been a very long and memorable journey. The end of high school marks the beginning of college life. College life started on a rough path. It took me a lot of time to get used to the new surrounding and accept the fact that "I'm here" but fortunately, I got over it. Making a lot of new 'sisters' and 'brothers' along the way, that's precious. =)

Thank you to all of you who had leave your footprints in this wonderful 2011! :)

I hope 2012 will be another memorable year. Another journey to remember. The first one will be my very first countdown with 24 awesome people at Gurney tomorrow. Can't wait :)

Made a few resolutions for the upcoming year:

1. Ace all my college exams and quizzes
2. An escape to Thailand with my college brother and friends (Bro, you see. It's very important. Part of my 2012 resolution. XD)
3. Vacation with my family. =)
4. Have courage to make the right decision.
5. Have fun ;)
6. Try something new.
7. And finally, as usual. Yale, US, one day. :)

P/S: Let's hope 2012 is not the end of the world so that I can have many years to live to continue my dreams. =D

XOXO, JL.

2 weeks, GONE!

2011-11-17T12:38:00.001+08:00

Ahhh.. 2 weeks passed by as if it was just yesterday. Why are you so cruel? I've just started to enjoy myself and you're taking it away from me. Everyone has holidays for at least a month while I only have half of it. =(

Ans: That's what you get for fast-track. Too bad. :((((

It's really sad that my KL buddies are still having their exams and college. Carmen, Ziwah, Pik Ki, Olivia, Yee Xuan - All the best and good luck :) Yun Shi, heard that you're at KAKOM - Best wishes :D Only get to meet Julia and Yih Mey this holiday. I know the next time we meet, it'll be very, very long. I have 5 months long holiday after April/May. Anyone up for a vacation out of Malaysia? I'm longing for it and I know I won't stay put in KL during that period. Let me know if you're up for it. ;)

Had a wonderful outing with Julia and Yih Mey just before I take my flight back to Penang on Friday. I'm so sorry to all of you who requested an outing of Friday, but I really can't. =( Watched You Are The Apple Of My Eye, it's hilarious + romance. Definitely teenage flick. We bumped into the Angelic, Angel. LOL. She shouted in front of the cinema and everyone was staring but we still hugged in public. It's like those days once again. *winks* Anyway, thanks for the time to both of my KL buddies! It's time like this we always get nostalgic huh? XD Those times in CBN. Ahhh :) Went back to CBN with Julia to get our SPM certs. Many teachers left and apparently, more will be leaving. This is a piece of bad news for CBN. Had an awesome talk with my class teacher, Puan Lim. :)

Yih Mey was right when she said the best time she had was when she was in high school. No doubts =) The craziness, the hyperness. Although I have to admit we had our rough times, but we can't have the rainbow without a little rain right? Besides, ain't those times are the reason why we are who we are today? :)

I do not know when will be the next time we have our high school gathering. Everyone is sooooo busy. KL peeps. XD But if we ever have that chance, I know we'll cherish that moment for a life time. =)

Keep the good moments with you, forever.

XOXO, JL.

Feelings.

2011-10-25T17:15:00.001+08:00

They are right when they said it's impossible for you to control your feelings. It just come, no way to avoid it.

I'm not that type of girl who expresses much. But when someone do extraordinary much for you, it's just impossible for you to not feel it. While some of you might think that it's really hard to be with someone that is entirely different from us, trust me. I'm with you. I know it's not easy to gain acceptance and I dare not imagine what will happen in the future. But as for now, right at this moment, I just really want to feel what I'm feeling now. I want to be a kid once again to believe in fairytales. I want to believe that history will not repeats itself. I truly hope for that.

I'm a person who believes in fate so yes, I guess this is what I'd like to call fated. It's just inevitable. The circle of people here is really small, that's true. So when you keep rejecting one person and keep hurting them and keep pushing them away, you do expect them to move on. It's no big deal. It's not like you've known for years or gone through life and death together.

But there's this one guy who never give up, never feel tired of expressing, always being there, always giving you everything that you need although you never return... You know he deserves you more than anyone does. You know, this is the one thing I want to hold on and believe in.

Never mind his past if he tells you now everyday , everynight that he loves you and he won't do the same to you because if he didn't mean it, he could have just left and not waste his time.

Girls usually are the decider. They decide whether they should give the guys a chance. I do not know if you'll have fairytales ending by giving that chance, but one thing I'm sure; you'll have wonderful and sweet memories. :)

Isn't life is about having no regrets?

You're human. Feel what you're suppose to feel.

XOXO, JL.

Hello! :)

2011-10-16T16:18:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile, isn't it readers? =)

I've been really busy with college stuffs for the past one month. Now that everything is kinda over, I finally have some time.

Well. Semester 1 ended in a blink of an eye. Now all that's left of Semester 1 is my semester exam and MUET Speaking Test. Hopefully I'll pass with flying colours (and rainbow too, if possible) XD I'll have to admit that Semester 1 is a walk to remember. ;)

Can't wait for my two weeks back in KL. So many things are installed for me. I miss you guys in KL! Let's party as planned. :D

I'm glad we find our way out.

XOXO, JL.

We Grow.

2011-09-16T08:59:00.000+08:00

It's true that everyday is a brand new experience. Hope it's not to late for me to realise that we shouldn't rush things, enjoy every moment of life. :) It's good to be around a bunch of matured people at times. Probably none of us are exceptionally rich because otherwise, we will have be in Taylors or Sunway. People like us tend to put down the ego and help each other out. Stop what we're currently doing just to help others out. That's how we live our life here and that's really nice.

Well, we might have very limited resources and entertainment here. The food, facilities and hostel here are awful. But I guess when you look at the brighter side, you'll see there's an added advantage here. People here don't just take advantage on you. You get to meet superb people! :D As I've always mentioned, the only reason I'm still here is probably because of the great people I've met. :)

Learning from people all over Malaysia, different background and culture, listening to thoughts on why they've made up their mind to come here instead there just made me realise how we grow. We're no longer kids. We stand up to every decision we made. It may not be at the best now, but one day, you'll take all the bad and it'll turn out to be good. I'm faithfully believing in that. :)

These are some of the latest pictures:

Live your life.

XOXO, JL.

Buddies! :D

2011-09-02T23:07:00.003+08:00

Karaoke with Yih Mey buddy- Had a whale of time singing with her! She's always my karaoke partner, one that will always complain her voice is bad on microphone and yet, still accompanies me to karaoke every single time. Currently in Form 6, I know it's not easy for her. Especially when all of us ain't there! :P I do not know when will you be reading this but when you do, please strive through Form 6 no matter how hard it is. Do not give up! If you're about to break down, give me a call! I promise you I'll pick up or I'll give you a call back if I'm really busy. XD Take care dear! Thank you for asking me out! XOXO.

Night market and yum cha with Carmen dear- It's such an honour that you've given me your first experience to night market. XD The fact that you're so hot and uneasy but yet, you squeezed through the entire night with me. =) Glad you love the foods there! I'll hope you'll remember me if you ever eat them again. ;) Now that my problems are almost settled, I hope yours can too! I'm sure you know what's best for you, for her and for him. No doubt, it's hard to make decision but always remember, if we don't make them now, we'll have to make them sooner or later. After all, life is about no regrets. :) Please do take good care of yourself. I know Sunway is not an easy place for you, but I'm so glad that you've strive through it. No longer that 'soft and weak' Carmen I used to know. :D Thank you for your homemade soya and dessert as well as the spirulina crackers. Send my regards to your parents! They are always so loving! :) Thank you for spending your precious time with me before I move back to Penang! XOXO.

Lunch and movie with Ziwah darling- First and foremost! Awesome driving skill you have there! Haha. Thank you for driving me around. It's really nice of you. Then your lunch treat at this really awesome place, Gardens. Next time, we'll go Fullhouse alright? My treat :) Honestly, I do not know why all your friends said you're 'man' now because for me, I seriously think that you're more girl now. Independent lady! I guess it's because they do not know you when you were in high school. HAH. That's what I call 'man'. =P The time I spent with you at Gardens prove me right. The way you were reading my text messages, that obviously show that you're being girl. LOL. I hope the next time I come back, you'll have someone to show me by then. :P All the best in HELP! Good luck in your second semester! Gambateh! I'm sure you can get all A's. :D Thank you for an awesome time cutie girl! :P XOXO.

High school was indeed a walk to remember. :)

If only everyone remembers...

XOXO, JL.

Sweet Memories.

2011-09-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

I really hope I have enough sweet memories with you. Enough for you to share it your next partner-for-life.

I know it's my fault. I'm truly sorry. Guilt is just probably one small part. But the fact that I enjoyed my time with you, that's the main reason I was being selfish. I've always hope and wanting the courage to come. You've never failed to make me feel special and secure, but I guess that 'something' I have, it wasn't good enough.

Now that you've made up your mind, I truly hope that it's for the best. I really don't want you to get wasted or anything. I want to see the happy and loving face, which is NOT an act. You can be really dearly and sweet to girls, don't stop being that. Don't let your old self ruin that.

I truly hope that you'll find one that can accept you for whoever and whatever you are. I know you will. It's just the matter of time. And I know by then, I'd probably still hoping if only I had that courage... Still, you'll definitely have all my blessings and wishes from the bottom of my heart.

P/S: I'm pretty sure your partner won't be the one because I know deep down, even if your partner really has feelings, your partner won't pursue it. So no worries about that at all. :)

Take care, dear. Don't let 'us' ruin you. You're more than that.

When fate try to mess around with you.

XOXO, JL.

Clueless.

2011-08-25T17:53:00.002+08:00

Stuck in the middle of nowhere, hanging on a single thread.

I do not know if I'm thinking too much or you are doing too much?
I do not know if I should let you in and risk it?

I do not know what is the right decision now.

Are we right where we should be?

XOXO, JL.

Dreams.

2011-08-23T11:53:00.001+08:00

People always tend to say, "Dare to dream" or "Dream big" or "Do not give up on your dreams"...

Well, I'm not so sure if dreaming is a good thing but I'm not here to tell you to give up on your dreams. Just... Dreams can really break your heart at times. It can bring you and your loved ones down. I know my parents have never blame me that I didn't manage to get the overseas scholarship but you know, I still feel sorry for them. The fact that they feel sorry for me because they are unable to send me to my dream place - Yale makes thing worst. Now that I'm back, their actions ensure me that they felt awful for leaving me there at Penang all by myself so they're using these 2 weeks to "pay-me-back".

Honestly, I know to believe that I'll still be in Yale one day is unrealistic and childish but I still just really want to have something to work for you know? Something to look upon. Maybe, just maybe, one day, all these hard work and struggle will pay off.

Besides, if things go out of hand or really bad, all I really need is someone to be there for me, to believe in me, to care for me and to give me one big hug and I know I'll return back to the track, all ready for another round of race. I'm not sure if I have someone like this by my side because things haven't really be at the worst yet, but if I don't, I know I'll still have my parents to fight for.

Dad and mum! I love both of you no matter what! :D

Okay, enough of those sad stuffs! Life's too short! Haha.

To love or to be love?

XOXO, JL.

Pretending.

2011-08-20T19:30:00.000+08:00

A really meaningful originals by Glee Cast - Finn and Rachel. They practically speak many hearts out I believe.

Face to face and heart to heart
We're so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That's just because I'm not okay
But I hold on, I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach out underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be pretending

How long do I fantasize
Make believe that it's still alive
Imagine that I am good enough
And we can choose the ones we love
But I hold on, I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong,

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach out underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be

Keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like no ones letting go
And it's such a shame
Cause if you feel the same
How am I supposed to know?

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach out underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be
Will we always, always, always be

Will we always, always, always be

Pretending

XOXO, JL.

Penang-KL. :)

2011-08-20T01:58:00.000+08:00

PENANG TRIP WAS AWESOME. I'm pretty sure no one can deny that.

First and foremost. Thank you to the organisers-SK and his mum, brother (Chee Yuen) and the photographer- Ruo Bin. They definitely did a great job! This trip has definitely created lots of sweet memories for me :) Thank you to everyone that is part of this wonderful trip. You people are what matters the most and the reason KMPP is not a living hell!

Happy holidays and be safe Penang kia(s)! Will miss all of you! :D

Hello KL dears and darlings! It had been awhile ;)

I miss all of you peeps! Let's meet up and catch up with each other's life! I'm sure all of us have many stories to share now. Haha. I still remember when we had such long holidays and everyone was complaining about boredom... Kinda miss that moment now, don't we? Lol.

P/S: Please let me know earlier the day and date you peeps want to meet up okay? I need to plan my schedule =P

I'm the type of person who wants to know the truth. I need answers to the most complicated questions. I'll manage even if it's something that I never want to hear. I want to have no regrets in life. So please, don't leave me hanging in the middle; unable to decide what to do next.

XOXO, JL.

Serene.

2011-07-24T17:13:00.000+08:00

It's really windy here at Penang today. The cooling effect is just right for me to write my blog. :)

Sometimes, I really wish I have the ability to read people's mind. Wanting to know something so bad, but you just never know if you'll get the answer. I don't want to be left hanging. I don't want to wonder. So I've made up my mind to a very simple conclusion. Lose it. Nothing ever happens, really. :)

I have really nice friends here and they'll be worried if anything happens to me. So, I promise my sister that I'll not let anything hurt me. :)

To start with, we have never start. To end with, we have never end. That's why we're friends.
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My mid-semester exam is in a week's time. Started my hardcore and thank Buddha, my study mood is back! :D My electricity is back to stable, fortunately. My bus ticket back to KL is reserved! I can't wait =D I miss my KL peeps A LOTTTTT.

Every weekend, I feel the bliss! Haha, This week especially. I have two deliveries today - breakfast and dinner. Both awesome chinese foods; 'duo pau' and the supposedly most famous penang laksa. Haha. Btw, 'duo' means big here. Thank you to both of my friends for the delivery! :)
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Talking To The Moon - Bruno Mars. I'm addicted.

XOXO, JL.

Alive! :D

2011-07-02T19:09:00.000+08:00

This is to tell you that I'm still alive, KL peeps. Haha.

Don't know what's wrong with my stupid laptop battery. It is dead now, dead! Fortunately, I have a very nice Penang friend here. He will be helping me to buy the new Dell battery if he manages to find it. Thank you so much! I really appreciate all your favours. :)

It's a really, really tired week. Bounded by those 'goverment' college rules, we need to gather at 6.30am today. So yes, you can guess what time I woke up. :( Well, but it was still an enjoyable 1.5km morning walk. Plannings for the upcoming big event for all of the non-muslims had start. The theme is actually quite similar to our International Understanding Day 2010, meaning I'll have another chance to wear those traditional costumes. I can't wait! Haha. Although I know I'll be really, really busy. :S And I know I'll be reminiscing those time where we all worked together so hard to create a full-blast event! :D

Last week I went to the pasar malam near my college and I can't help but to start missing our Connaught pasar malam! :( My usual spot with the Cheras peeps! The foods- Taiwan sausage, chinese burger, fried sotong, fried fillet, desserts, pan mee.... I miss my Cantonese Friend 'Yin Yong' and Hokkien Mee as well. :( Wait till I'm back at KL, I'll make sure I have a mission impossible! Hehe. :D

I was chatting with Angel on Facebook and she called me 'meyling' and 'lingling'. LOL. It's gonna sound so weird if my college friends call me that. And yes, Angel! I miss talking Gossip Girl with you too. :( Chuck and Blair. S2 Vampire Diaries- Stefan and Damon. ;)

Will be going to USM this coming Thursday for our beloved astronaut! I'm going to see him for the second time and taking pictures with him for the second time. Although I'm not a big fan of him. Haha. JULIA LIM SHIN YI, DON'T JEALOUS. :P Good luck and all the best in INTEC my dear! :)

Dear Carmen Chang, don't be too upset okay? Cheer up :)

Dear Loh Ziwah, stay cutie-cute! :D

Dear Yih Mey, don't over-stress in Form 6. Haha.

Dear Buddies and Unions, you guys rock my high school life! Now that we're all in different pathways, chasing after our dream- ALL THE BEST :)

P/S: My mid-semester exam is in one month's time. Going to hardcore really soon! / I'm going to watch Transformers next weekend! :D

XOXO, JL.

Exhausted.

2011-06-15T18:10:00.000+08:00

I'm really, really tired.

With all the posts I held now. With all my homework. With all my assignments.

Please give me more energy. Please light my way. Please keep me awake.

I need someone to be my strength. :(

XOXO, JL.

Spoilt brat.

2011-06-10T17:31:00.001+08:00

I'm becoming a spoilt brat here. Having too many nice friends makes me one of the spoil-est brat here. Haha, this may sound super weird to you. It is for me too. Yes, home has everything. Home is still the best place. But here.... There's another family feeling that only being here that we can feel and experience it. Especially when it comes to my circle of friends.

There was this girl from second intake who came all the way from Johor and yes, that means 9 hours of ride. It's really sad that she gave up way before she even try her first day. Her parents, herself - I really want to let her know that's a lost. I swear I felt horrible and terrible for being here when I first came here, but as we all can see, things changes. :)

Well, start of something new for me! Tomorrow I'm going to start my hard core in my studies. Study really hard for myself. For my family.

P/s: Miss you KL peeps! Love you Penang kia! S2

XOXO, JL.

Wonderful people! :)

2011-06-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

They are my sunshine in KMPP. The reason I'm still breathing even though I feel like giving up anytime, the people that bring smile to my life when things go wrong, the ones that are there for me and I don't know how to tell you the feeling... But I'm so glad I found them in my college life- The 'Tai Kah Jie' Gang. :)

Being with them, we're always the loudest everywhere we go! Library, cafe, cycling, walking around, outing - we're always together. We're like the small family among the big family of the non-muslim society. Now that it's an official statement that I'm staying in KMPP, I want to enjoy it more than crying through it. I don't want my parents to worry about me so from now on, I will make through everyday with a bright smile. After all, I know I have many support back home in KL and here, in Penang.

People here are really friendly and kind. So, dad, mum! I want to tell you guys I'm doing great and adapting well. I promise you I'm going to be fine. I'll overcome my homesick feeling and ace my exams. I won't let anyone down anymore. :)

Life is a journey that you should go through, good or bad.

XOXO, JL.

Penang!

2011-05-27T14:18:00.000+08:00

I'm missing KL but Penang is getting interesting. Now don't get me wrong, the facilities here are really... *coughs* But well, the people here are really nice! My roommates are all Malays but they are really kind, met a chinese friend in the same level and same block as me. She's really nice. :) Met someone who looks like the combination of En Hui and Suat Ying. Will take a picture and show you guys soon. Haha. All the non-muslims here are really close to each other as there are only 93 of us out of 2079 people.

I know my parents don't read my blog, they don't even know it exist but well. I really do love and miss them really much. I hope they're doing fine without my brother and I with them. *pray*

Hello buddies! How are you peeps in KL? Doing great? I know there's an outing with Ms Sarah coming soon but unfortunately, I won't be able to make it. =( Enjoy yourself and post the photos in Facebook! Send my regards to our beloved teacher :D Miss you peeps! Take care! =)

I have my camera with me but I haven't start taking any pictures. Not even a single one. Well, I know it's so not like me. Haha. When I first came here, I cried. I thought it will be the starting of my nightmare. I kept my expectations really low, but they're lower than my expectations. Home is really the best place on earth! Home sweet home. Miss everything I had in KL. Anyway, pictures coming up real soon when I start taking them tonight! :)

It's the last day of orientation. This might sound impossible but I think I'll miss it, especially the non-muslims session. =)

XOXO, JL.

Goodbye KL.

2011-05-21T14:55:00.001+08:00

I'll use an open heart to welcome Penang. :) 'Think positive' and 'never give up' are two encouragement that I got the most. I'm going to miss my family (parents especially, since my brother and I won't be by their side anymore), my buddies, my home and everything I have in KL. Moving to Penang for a year means a brand new beginning and adventure. Not something that I want, but I hope I'll enjoy the process just as much.

Thank you so much to those who find time to bid their final farewell with me. I really, really appreciate it! Love you people! :D

17th May - Outing to Times Square.

Julia! I still love the pink! :( Haha.

Love you girls! :D

Thank you for an awesome day out! A day full with future and promises! :D Julia dear, you must make sure our promise is kept under whatever circumstances. The secret crush or the future date, the weekly keep in touch and the encouragement for exams - I will keep that in mind. You know I don't break promises! :) We'll always have each other, wherever and whenever. =)

18th May - The 'Last' Dinner.

Sweeeettttt :)

The awesome group! :D

Thank you very much for the dinner treat. It's really a waste that I can't have my last night market trip but it was still a very nice night dinner with you peeps! You guys are really awesome friends. Hopefully, we'll have our next outing really soon. :)

20th May - Ice-cream and Karaoke.

Buddies forever! :)

With the cutie pies! :D

With Olivia. :)

First, sorry for the lousy quality of this outing's picture. I left my camera at home as I was in a rush. Haha. Thank you to all of you who came! It was really nice seeing you girls again before I leave. Now that everyone is in different places, I wish you girls all the best! I had my very last Karaoke session before I leave KL. Since Olivia and Yi Heng had to go back early, that leave 3 of us - Ziwah, Yih Mey and I. I'll say it's one of the best karaoke session I had. We had this 'mou zhi'. :) The food and drink was nice for me! Pity Ziwah :p Thank you for your present as well! Love you girls always! :)

21st May - Visit from Carmen.

Deeply appreciate all your efforts! =')

Puffy will be my first friend I have in Penang! :D Your home-made soya and pumpkin dessert are really delicious. I'm really touched with everything you and your family had done for me. This is a huge encouragement for me. I will keep trying and not give up easily. You know, deep down, you will always be my good friend. Nothing is ever going to change our friendship. Please send my warm regards to your family okay? :)

Sorry to those people who wanted to go out with me but I just can't find time for them. Really sorry Angel, Meng Tsu and etc! You know you people will always be my friends. :)

THANK YOU EVERYONE. I LOVE YOU ALL.

Till then, take care.

XOXO, JL.

Heart broken.

2011-05-14T11:19:00.001+08:00

No more United States. No more Yale.

It's just like a distant dream now. When PSD announced the news that every student with 8A+ and above will get a scholarship, it makes my day. I finally get to sleep, less insomnia. PSD was my only hope for my dream to come true.

Well, yesterday, they crush it.

My heart was aching, I was like an insane women, I yelled at my dad, I cried a thousand times until my eyes are really swollen today and I think if only I had a little more courage, I'll do the thing.

I just don't know if I have any more reason to work hard now. Work hard or not, you end up locally. I never really thought that I will end up in matriculation, but now that it's all decided - I don't really have a choice. Yesterday news was suppose to be a celebration for me and my family. Why did it end up so painful?

I don't feel like me anymore. No more confidence, no more dream. I feel like giving up or for the sake of moving on. Don't even bother trying to talk me into it because when someone lose the reason they're striving for, they just lose everything.

By the way. I found out something good about MSN and Facebook yesterday. It is that you can put a ':D' or 'LOL' and people will know that YOU'RE OKAY.

JL.

Keep The Smile.

2011-05-05T21:29:00.004+08:00

JPA result is delayed, again. Psssst, I'm stress.

I want to keep the smile for my parents but I can't hide my anxiety, my worries. I want my parents to not worry but I'm going insane inside. I want to do so many things but I do not know how to do it. I know I'm thinking too much but I can't help it. The only thing that can help me to stop thinking is by going out or talking with my friends. But I think I'm starting to make everyone around me bored by repeating on the same topic. Sorry to those victims out there. :(

Anyway! Check this out -click here. It's a really romantic love song from a superb Taiwan drama, PS Man. :)

"I don't need my special someone to be smart because he is the smartest for choosing me. I don't need him to be rich because we're rich together. I don't need him to be sweet on our anniversary because he is romantic to me everyday. I believe love will find it's way because I'm the type of person who's willing to sacrifice for love, for you."

PS Man is a really nice love story. :)

XOXO, JL.

Insomnia.

2011-04-27T01:57:00.001+08:00

I have been in insomnia state for a few days. I know it's bad for me, but I just can't stop thinking once I lie down on my bed. I guess only Julia will understand what I'm feeling. How does it feels to see everyone moving on and you stay stagnant at the same old, same old.

I can't help but to wonder what lies ahead for me. It's about to be 5 months since I last touch a book. I know I'm going to be a rotten apple once I start. I wonder if my brother ever feels the way I feel when he was in my shoes, or maybe he never have to worry because his heart back then was all set and ready for Form 6. His friends are in Form 6. It's not the same for me.

Dad always give me the ever-lasting encouragement. He told me to stay optimistic, stay positive. Even if I don't get it, I can still study locally. No big deal. But I am yet to tell my dad that it is a big deal for me. It has always been my dream to study in United States. I think I'm gonna cry for days if I don't get it because I think I had to sacrifice more than others(majority) to achieve what I had achieved today. No one in my class, if not school ever have to worry about tuition. No one in CBN ever have to work part time jobs as much as I do(not that I blame anyone). No one in my group of friends have a brother like mine. As for mum, I think she's just as anxious as I am.

No one will understand what I'm feeling now, right at this moment.

One of my paternal aunt tend to say things like, "Don't worry, Economics is easier to get. Sure can get la." At that very moment, I really wanted to tell her that Economics may sound lower class or easier-to-get but it isn't. Come to analyse it, for art stream subjects, students from both streams tend to apply for it. As for science stream subjects, only science stream students get to apply for it. Hence, Economics is more competitive. Sometimes, I don't blame them. It's their way of expressing their support to me. But sometimes, I can't help but to hope they just never bother.

Okay, I'm going to admit this- I'm worried, like dead worried.

But as people always say, stay optimistic and you'll get what you want. So, I'm going to stay as optimistic as I can, I'm going to dream(even if I can't sleep) that I get the offer and I'm going to try to not think about what IF I don't get it.

P/S: I thought after writing this super-long-grandma-story I'm going to start feeling sleepy but instead, I'm getting more awake. This is bad. I'm in my living room by the way. Oh! Did I mention? Yesterday, I slept at 7 a.m. No joke! :S

XOXO, JL.

At times.

2011-04-22T16:51:00.000+08:00

At times...

all you need is a listening ear, a broad shoulder and a good friend to go through the bad times.

Glad that I have a few reliable friends :)

Watched Justin Bieber, Never Say Never. Not going to say much, he deserves the respect! He is a young boy from a small town with talent. Yes, you may say he's really fortunate (which I agree by the way) but he got tonnes of fans screaming for him. Fortunate or what? He got to have something for that to happen. Why didn't people scream for people like Jonas Brothers instead? Not as mad, that's a fact. No offense.

Justin Bieber! :D

He's my inspiration that everything is possible. never say never ;)

BUT.... SAM TSUI IS STILL THE MAN S2 LOL.

I like this look of him. Charming :D Haha. I really hope I'll make it to Yale and get to know you :)

My parents are really weird these few days. The other day, my dad kept asking me about my ideal boyfriend and do I have one. Then today, my mum asked me a really weird question. She asked me if there's this guy who really love you, but he is very poor, will you still accept him?

Weird.

Now, what's most important to me is my scholarship. Not going to think about anything else for now. Please, please give me my scholarship. =/

XOXO, JL.

Marry You.

2011-04-12T14:53:00.003+08:00

No matter which version you're listening - Bruno Mars or Glee, you'll still fall in love with it! :)

Cause it's a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do;
Is it the look in your eyes or is it this dancing juice?

Who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you!

I just love this part! It makes me feel joyous. :) I keep replaying the song on my blog and media player (because it's two different version) and the melody just stick into my head! =D

I read the news and there's this guy who proposed to his wife-to-be on Bruno's concert when he sang Marry You. It's sooooo sweeeeettttt! I almost hope it was me! HAHA. Just kidding, everyone knows. ;)

I don't know if what I'm feeling is true, I can't risk it. Neither can you. Even if there's a slightest chance that we're uncertain, we shouldn't. We have to maintain at the border line. Cause I can't afford to lose this, not this time.

I'll keep reminding myself that.

XOXO, JL.

Joy. :D

2011-04-10T22:02:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 7th April.

Sunway Lagoon! It had been awhile since I last went there. I used to go there very often with my cousins when I was small. We had tonnes of fun, really. Julia, Yih Mey, Angel, Sim Hye, Kah Munn, Hor Jeann and I meet up at Masjid Jamek station. Took a train to Kelana Jaya station and then bus. Transport was not a problem at all when we were going there. We had a whale of time playing the water and amusement park. Swimming is real deal! Haha. Yee Teng joined us after her college. All of us had the FREE Sausage McMuffin as lunch/tea. LOL. Speaking of that, whoever who still wants the voucher, do not hesitate to come my house and get them. :) Had dinner at Kim Gary's. Choon Wei joined us when we were heading home, so called to "protect" us, being the "gentleman". But well, we know the real thing. ;) LOL. Anyway, A HUGE THANK YOU TO TUCKS. You offered to come all the way to Sunway to fetch us eventhough you haven't finish your assignment. Thank you for sending us home from BTS, safe and sound! :)

Friday, 8th April.

Kah Munn's 18th. We had a great time BBQ-ing. Especially the marshmallows. Ain't they lovely? LOL. A great time catching up with all the superb classmates... except for Hor Jeann. I mean, she's not the classmate. Lol. It's all about eating, in short. Gaining weight like seriously :S Thank you Kah Munn's brother for the THRILLING ride home. It's worst than Henry's, no doubt. LOL. Everyone got great news from JPA. Good luck everyone, btw! :) We have future doctor, future dentist, future engineer and etc! :D

Sunday, 9th April.

Cheng Meng! I don't know if I get that right. :S Anyway, pray pray pray, eat eat eat. You get the whole idea. Great catching up time with my maternal family! It had been awhile since we last meet up. Everyone is so busy. The best meal is of course the one we had at Hakka Marble. It's delicious! :D See, I've been eating real lot these days. BIG PROBLEM. Hah.

I'll be heading back to school tomorrow to get the certification, who's going back too? :)

Cause you're amazing, just the way you are. :)

XOXO, JL.

Eighteen (:

2011-03-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

Thanks Mummy! :)

They said your 18th birthday should be something memorable, something huge. It's your first golden key before the age 21.

My 18th birthday is simple yet memorable. They said life is full with surprises, I do agree. But first, a big thank you to everyone who gave me their warm wishes whether it's through text message, phone call, msn or even facebook. Really, it means a lot to me. A special thank you to Carmen for coming to my house all the way to give me a really nice present! I love your necklace, thank you! :)

Back to the surprise. It's not what you think. It's not a bunch of friends crashing my house or I got myself a puppy. Haha, although I won't mind either of those. :P Anyway, I received a text message. It's a message that I thought I will never receive. She's someone that I lose long ago for some reason, a really close friend. I thought we'll never be able to be friends again. But today, her really sentimental message makes all the difference. :)

Dear Xin Yong, thank you for making the first move. Enough said :')

My fulfilling dinner! :D

XOXO, JL.

Simply weird.

2011-03-25T23:10:00.001+08:00

Okay, let's get this straight. The person / group of people who prank-ed me definitely reads my blog. Otherwise, they wouldn't have know I'm yearning to go to Yale. :S

Received a prank call from a guy / a group of guys. I don't know. But I think he put the call on hold for a few times to laugh. Lol. So, here's what the prank call about;

He's a Yale representative. Randomly calls people around Malaysia. He's calling 50 people and only 10 will be selected. Well, I kinda know it's a prank call. I even told him that I'm not the top student in Malaysia and was it a prank call. Honestly, credits to the "pranker" , he did the prank call really well. But still, it's just ridiculous for Yale to call me. So yeah. Anyway, he ended the call by saying so you're up for anything right? Really nice. Lol. A few minutes later, he called back and said, "Foo Tun Kai prank call-ed you." End call. Haha, man! Still not over that yet? Lol.

Anyway, I've checked with Tun Kai. He said it's not him. Hence, I still don't know who's behind the prank call. But I'm pretty sure you'll be reading this and laughing-out-loud. I did asked a close friend of mine to call back the number, twice; but well, no answer. So I'm guessing, you never want me to know who you are. Well, just a quick message - let me know who are you next time, it'll be more fun! :) Or... Should I publish your phone number in Facebook to find out? Haha. Your number is not entirely secret you know. Lol. :D

Then... There's this really random SJI guy. He said his name is Ming Joe. But Tucks said Ming Joe is a really nice guy, so it shouldn't be him. Right, another prank? He facebook-ed me and asked whether I'm still using the same number. He said he got it when it was out on the "open". So I'm guessing it's during the IU Day period. Either way, it's just really random. So, I'm suppose to receive a text later from this whoever. Lol.

So.. Two pranks on a same day? It's simply weird. Or should I say... simply awesome? Haha.

XOXO, JL.

Anticipation.

2011-03-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

All that left in me for the upcoming three months will be phone calls; and they are no ordinary phone calls. They are calls that decide my future.

I'm glad that I've pulled out a great show. Not exactly what I hope for, but still. I want to reward myself by getting straight A's. My parents, my brother, my relatives, my cousins and my friends - Thank you very much for the ever-lasting support! It means a lot to me. Especially when the pressure of everyone expecting something great from me. :S

As for my friends who cried, who think they did not do well; SPM is just a stepping stone. If you didn't do well enough now, fear not. It's a wake up call. Strive twice as hard for your upcoming exams. I do understand your disappointment. I've been there. In fact, UPSR had always been my nightmare - and wake up call. I'm very fortunate because my wake up call came much earlier. So, never give up! Keep striving for your dreams and goals! :)

I got a red packet from my parents. It's RM 200. :D Now don't judge. It means a lot to me. :)

8A+, 2A means another wake up call for me! If only I have put in twice much of effort, I would have gotten myself a scholarship. But still! I'm going to keep trying. :)

XOXO, JL.

Weekend!

2011-03-20T23:51:00.001+08:00

19th March, Saturday.

Went to Mid Valley with a bunch of friends - Yee Teng, Wei Tuck, Choon Wei and Henry. Had Madam Kwan for dinner. The banana fritters is really good. You guys should really go check it out! :D Watched Big Momma; Like Father Like Son. It was hilarious. Go watch it if you're feeling down. Thank you Tucks for driving! :)

Received a late night call that really worried me. Honestly, you decide how you want to live your life. If you think you had tried hard enough, try harder. Like you said, I've said it a GAZILLION times but still I'm saying the same old thing. People move on and reminisce the past. They don't live in the past. I'm sure you can do it! Have faith! Love will come eventually. :)

20th March, Sunday.

Kimberly and Ziwah crashed my house! We had this small surprise for Yih Mey to celebrate her belated 18th birthday. Hope you enjoyed yourself girl! :) We had tonnes of fun doing the girls talk(as usual), taking photos, surfing the net, shouting, laughing and prank calls! Haha. Yes, it's sure tonnes of fun! Had dinner at The Western's Corner. Nice environment :)

Heart you girls s2

Epic! Haha.

Wonder Girls - as if. Lol.

The Trio. :)

Happy moments. :)

Sleeping beauty. Hah.

Buddies as always :D

We have to learn to be selfless.

Some people leave the messy room and try opening a new room. But who can guarantee you that the next room you open, wouldn't be messy? - Only You.

XOXO, JL.

Yale.

2011-03-15T22:50:00.001+08:00

Results are due on 23rd March. :S It's actually on my birthday week. I really hope it won't spoil my week. All the best to everyone! The tense and stress. I'm already feeling the pressure. All my uncle and aunties. Although my parents didn't say anything, deep down, I know they hope I'll get it too. Hence, I still feel the pressure on my shoulder. Sometimes, I really hate my brother for getting the scholarship. He always complain about being the elder and now, it's my turn. It's not always nice being the younger one. My parents and I were having a talk. I told them not to attend my results day. I'm just really scared. I told them I'll give them a call if it's good and if it's not.... But anyway, they said they'll secretly attend. Who knows.

Right! Back to Yale. I've always wanted to further my education in United States. My cousin is currently in Standford, but somehow, that's not my university of interest. Currently, I'm aiming for Yale. Yale seems like a really nice place to study and have fun. Not forgetting, Sam Tsui is actually a Yale student! That's just really a coincidence but well, more reason for me to actually work hard for Yale. :)

*fingers crossed*

P/S: Congratulations to Carmen who just passed her driving test! Drive me out for tea alright? :D Although I know the first passenger will be a guy named Sunny. Haha.

XOXO, JL.

Start Again.

2011-03-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

Deeply in love with Sam Tsui now. If you are wondering who in the world is that, check this out! :)

Start Again - Sam Tsui.

The lyrics are pretty true. :)

Dear Carmen, I'm sure you can do it! I agree that you shouldn't rush into anything, but it's probably time for you to let go and learn to accept again. Actually, saying that, I should too. :)

Think of the impossible; and it might just happen.

XOXO, JL.

Goodbye.

2011-03-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

Goodbye Pacific Asiawide. Goodbye Titans. Goodbye superb colleagues! =')

Today is my last day working for Pacific Asiawide. I'm definitely going to miss the people! :) But I'm really tired. Especially when I'm required to work full shift. Anyway, I'm resuming back as working agent. Doing surveys or part-time promoting jobs when I feel like it. :D

Btw! I just bought myself a new Dell laptop with my hard-earned pay. :D I was so busy that I didn't even have time to open the box yet. Seriously. :S. I'm going to have my first touch on it tomorrow. :)

Sunshine - Darren. Jessy. Daniel. Yippy. DC. =D

Ain. Jessy. Arunan. DC.

Thunder :D

Titans! :)

We're like one big family! I'd really like to record my appreciation to Daniel. He's my direct leader. He's a really stubborn guy, no doubt. LOL. But somehow, that's how we got close. Criticism makes a person better. :) He taught me tonnes of stuffs. I will always play the same song(If I Die Young) once I got up to his car and that made him fed up. Haha. I'm really glad that he got promoted to Crew Manager before I leave the company and earned himself 1000 USD. Overall, he's really a great sifu and my superb PAC Daddy! :D

Next on the list is definitely none other than Lawrance. He's my sifu's sifu and that makes him my PAC Grandfather! He's really a family guy. You should really see the text messages he sent to his wife. I salute to the max! Haha. He's really caring towards me. He always take care and teach me stuffs when I worked with him on events. So... Thank you grandfather! :D And please don't forget your promise of promoting me into crew manager in the future when you're the project manager! Haha. :D

Last but not least, Arunan. He's the project manager of our team. I'll say he's a good leader. He leads the team really well. Thank you very much for the calls you made just to encourage and keep me going! :)

Not forgetting, everyone in the office especially DC, Yippy, Shalini, Sara, Lesh, Sabrina. :) Special thanks to Lesh for the farewell gift as well! That's really nice of you :D

This job will definitely be a memorable experience for me. I'll never forget my 5 weeks there. :)

XOXO, JL.

Time.

2011-02-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

I'm loving my blog song. It's such a beautiful song :)

I wonder how's everyone. Did everyone let go of their past and move on? Or are they still struggling with their past? Time flew by so quickly. Some move on to their tertiary education almost immediately, some doing part time jobs and there are some others who just having the best time of their life. Either way, I'm pretty sure there's something everyone miss. Someone to be accurate. Honestly, I do have a few of them too! (:

Just finished watching 7 Days In Life. I do not know why but somehow, that drama just happen to remind me about high school. Probably because of the similarities of the characters in the drama and the way the drama ended. A bitter-sweet ending.

"Who would have thought that forever could be severed by a sharp knife of a short life."

XOXO, JL.

Mix and Match.

2011-02-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

Life had been really busy these days, in a good way. :)

I still haven't quit my Mid Valley job, yet. The people there are just too awesome to leave. There will be this rally-like-annual-dinner-kind-of-thing going on this Saturday at PICC and I'm really excited. Everyone will be dressing smart and pretty in black! My sifu said there will be tonnes of high quality bachelor guys too! Woots! :D Haha.

My brother is leaving for New Zealand this coming Wednesday. Good luck in your future undertakings bro! Have a nice time there! :D

I want to go for a vacation. I want to go Thailand or Hong Kong. I got my passport like finally so let's do it babeh! I just need someone to go with me. I don't want to be a loner. I've just checked the Air Asia website, really worth traveling now! Just RM 13 to go to Singapore. -.-

Anyway, photos in facebook!

Oh! Before I forget, Happy Valentine's Day :)

XOXO, JL / B.

Parties. :)

2011-01-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

So... I had two night-parties in two days straight; which is really cool. :D I just love parties cause everyone gets to spend time together for a good purpose! I'm really lazy to take pictures recently, I don't know why. Hence, thank you to all the peeps who brought their great Canon and Nikon DSLR to my brother's farewell and birthday party yesterday. With almost the entire house filled up with Ex-Victorian guys, you can expect the unexpected yesterday night. LOL. Anyway, had fun playing the Mafia game and just simply chatting with everyone. :)

As for today, it is the grand-opening of the Chan's Family Hailam Kopitiam at Taman Connaught. Not really a party, but it was a nice time spent with a group of friends. Thank you Wei Tuck for the superb treat! I'll try to make more regular visits there during Chinese New Year. ;D Yee Teng had this RM 100 hair-cut at Mid Valley and it's really nice. It's actually my first time praising short hair, really. LOL. Short may not be my style, but it definitely looks good on her; as always. :)

I think it's going to be a busy Chinese New Year this year. Cho-1 and Cho-2 are always meant to be with family. Visiting Sue's house on Cho-3 and Ziwah's house on Cho-4. You guys can crash my house on Cho-4 too if you guys are interested. No angpow though, since my paternal grandma passed away this year. Really sorry about that. But anyway, do self-invite to the readers of this privatised blog. Just let me know and I'm guessing it'll be around noon :)

Cheers Viva La Vida! =D

XOXO, JL / B.

Take a break.

2011-01-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

I'm currently working with an event company in Mid Valley. The people there are really friendly, really warm. It's just the pay-scheme that really causing a trouble. I don't know, I am most probably quitting the job this Friday. But I think I'm gonna miss the people there. It's really different working with such people. Family feeling :) Anyway, I know you guys won't be reading this but really. Thank you so, so, so much Daniel and Arunan for the entire week! Thank you for all the Kopitiam, Reminisce Cafe and Starbucks treats too! ;D

Well, working is really tiring. I just want to go back to school. I'd rather go through exam stress, honestly. I don't hate the freedom but I just want to have my studies resume back as soon as possible. But... I didn't tell my parents. I don't want them to have any extra burden. So, I uhh. Just trying to avoid staying at home as much as I can and let them know that I'm okay with not studying, for now. Don't get me wrong, my parents are awesome. They did not and never will force me to do something I never want to do. They never ask a single word when I insisted that I want to further my studies in Economics and not Medicine or what-so-ever, even though my uncle and auntie said I should. They just give me their advice and concern, all the time. =)

I want to take a real break after this.

P/S: Gossip Girl Season 4 is back with their brand new episode today! =D

XOXO, JL / B.

Waiting For The End.

2011-01-18T20:57:00.000+08:00

It had been a superb bad day yesterday night. It is again, tonight.

There were so many people that came across my mind, those which I wanted to call for help when I was breathless yesterday but I just didn't.

2011, is a bad year for me. Bitter one already.

I need to go away for awhile. But where?

JL / B.

Awkwardness.

2011-01-13T10:14:00.000+08:00

Everyone is trying hard to avoid awkwardness. But one day, you just have to face them. It's just the matter of time.

I realize it was never us that couldn't let go. It was the audience.

XOXO, JL / B.

你不知道的事.

2011-01-05T22:39:00.001+08:00

There are many things in life that we think we know but in fact, it was never the truth.

I'm not going to any college, yet. Probably never will. So what if I'm going to Form 6 at MBS? It's really none-of-your-business. Do not make your own judgment, please. There are reasons which I don't have to tell you. You really think I'd rather go Form 6 than college if I had a choice? Think again.

And, I think working is really cool. You gain experience and money. Something which rich peeps like you will never get. It's NOT child abuse. If you didn't happen to realize, I'm 18.

It's good you're starting college but it's not the end of the world that I'm not.

XOXO, JL / B.

I'll miss you, 2010.

2011-01-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

2010 was a very, very memorable journey. Let's begin with some photos. :)

P/s: This is going to be a very long post.

2009-2010 New Year Countdown.

Pikki's house had this BBQ Party before we went to countdown at Bukit Bintang. That year, I celebrated it with Pik Ki, Yvonne, Shirley, Chun Hong, Ming Ren, Dexter and I-forgot-who-else. LOL. Sorry. I still remember we called the boys 'The Bodyguards'. Haha. We had tonnes of fun, spraying and getting sprayed. We overnight-ed at Pikki's house and had beer and wines. We even made a prank call! The entire thing was just hilarious! :)

Brother's surprise birthday party! :D

Credits to dai sou, Mae Yee who planned everything. From baking cake to smashing cake, we all enjoyed every moment to the max! Had dinner at Fun OK Cafe, that place is well, not too bad. Gor had to wear underwear in public like a superman with a condom on it. That was the funniest part. Awesome describes that day! :)

Mae Yee's Farewell Party!

I guess this was the first sad event happened in 2010. Dai sou had to leave to further her education in Perth, Australia. We had this farewell party for her at Foo's house. At first, everyone was having fun, playing FIFA, watching Korean vidoes and eating. Sadly, the final moment ended with tears, with yee starting to cry if I'm not mistaken. :P

Outing for Ziwah.

She WAS sick. The buddies went to Times Square for her! We ate at Shabu-Shabu. Everyone was really worried about her. I don't know if the entire outing worked out for her, but I do hope it helped her a little. I am so glad everything is more than fine now! :D

Pik Ki's 17th Birthday Party.

A big number of people attended! I bet she received lots of presents. ;D I still remember I ditched Kah Hoong's surprise birthday party for hers. I'm sorry KH. :) Pik Ki ended up in mess though, with tricks from her brother. Haha. Fun day indeed! =)

Drama competition and After-party! =D

After all the pressure and stress, after all the hours of practice, after all the ditching tuition classes- We finally won the drama competition 2010! The feeling was just unexplainable. It's like you worked really hard for something and it finally pays off. A really wonderful feeling. Our cold palms and sweat when we were waiting for the results, the loud screams when our name was announced as champions. Ahhh! =') Unions ♥

CBN-SJI Joint I.U Day and After-Party.

Yet another memorable event in 2010! Despite all our last minute preparations, the event was still a blast! Thank you to those peeps who came in a bunch! =D Luckily we ordered chairs a day before the event. Haha. It was a really great experience for me. I will never forget the hardwork behind the show. :) We had our after-party at Schanny's house one week after 8th May. His house was nice. It's really...environmental. Thanks for all the awesome food, Schanny! :D

CBN-MBS Outing.

It was a really random outing. Random results too. LOL. We went for karaoke at Red Box, Low Yat. Watched a movie which was Karate Kid. We cracked lots of lame jokes in between. -.- It was a day which reunites the pink shirt girl and striped shirt boy. Haha. As for me, I'm glad we're all still friends! :)

Ms Sarah's Farewell Party.

The best English and discipline teacher you can ever ask for! :D She's really darn cool. She gave us 'Immunity' which allows us to eat in class. Everything except for curry mee. LOL. We're allowed to do our add maths homework as long as we're pretending to listen. She'll always back up her students whenever she can. She's really a good teacher! :)

Librarians Photoshoot.

Ti-Ratana Seminar. Lousy one, by the way. -.-

MBS-SAB Joint I.U Day

Walk For Children 2010.

Sunway Accounting Quest.

Chinese New Year 2010 / Last Farewell for Yee.

Teacher's Day 2010.

Anugerah Cemerlang 2010.

Buddies ♥

5 years and still counting.

We're all same and different in our own ways. We will all have different future as we all have different dreams and character. We have to say goodbye for now. Everyone's starting college life soon. But they always say it's your high school friends which will stay with you forever. Buddies, always :)

Unions 09-10.

I only had 2 years with them, but it was like I had known them for ages. I guess it was my luck to get into a class full of genius and maniacs at the same time. :D We work hard, play even harder. They are the best classmates I ever have! Always there to support you in every way. When a classmate is sick, we'll send a fruits basket. When it's our class teacher's birthday, we'll buy cakes and write cards. When it's time to study, we'll pay full attention and study. When it's time to party, you guess it right. We're probably the loudest ones! I will always miss you girls, Unions! Keep the spirits high! We'll make a gathering when Ms Sarah comes back. :)

Goodbye 2010. You'll be remembered. I'll go back to 2010, all the time. =')

New Year Resolutions.

Getting JPA scholarship to United States.
On-diet.
Keeping in touch with my friends from high school.

Happy New Year dear readers! May the year of Rabbit be yet another memorable year! :)

XOXO, JL / B.

To a good friend.

2010-12-30T10:51:00.001+08:00

A♥B♥C♥D♥E♥F♥G♥....

And the cycle goes on. We, humans are just so weird. We always fall for people who doesn't even notice us and suffer. You texted me and told me that you can't sleep at 5am. Well, that's one way of suffering.

I know and I told you that moving on is easier said than done. Trust me. I do know. I guess you heard of my story or never mind if you didn't. It's really okay you know. Time really does heals wound. Eventually, you'll get over it and changes your perspective on things. But I guess in your case, it's quite different from mine. You're willing to wait, decided to wait. I don't know if it's the best thing for you but I guess you'll know and find out when time comes. Meanwhile, please don't break my record alright. Mine was 1 year and 8 months. Hopefully, you'll recover faster than me. LOL.

Hey! Not to make you feel any better or any type of 'baby-comfort' but, I'm sure you'll find your princess. The other day you told me, instead of Beauty and the Beast, it's now Cinderella and Prince Charming. You're telling me that you're the Beast? C'mon. You are most probably the one person I know that have the world's most generous heart. Seriously. You offer your help to someone you barely know and you do good deeds. You even sympathize the beggars syndicate. I see no fault in you. You know, it's really nice to have a friend from the opposite sex like you with no burden, no politics, no rumours and who can talk about almost everything just like good friends. =)

You were once there for me when I said I need someone to scold and you said, "Scold me." LOL. How can I ever forget that. So yeah, if you ever need a shoulder or a listening ear, just call me. Anytime :) It's not like I've never heard your sobbings anyway! ;P Haha.

And yes, Chuck Bass is my "boyfriend". And no, he's not your brother. Not because you're 10X uglier, but because your heart is 10X better. :D Cheer up! Take care! Now, go get some sleep! =D

XOXO, JL / B.

Older.

2010-12-19T18:25:00.004+08:00

I happily got over the 6 long hours of KPP with Ziwah and Yee Teng. =D

Thank you Pik Ki for your souvenir! Didn't know I'll have one. Haha.

Everyone is telling me about which college they are going, when they are starting and that I'm going to get the JPA scholarship. You know, I don't even have the confidence in myself. I'm going to go for Form 6 or matriculation if I don't get my JPA and that's really sad. But, I've made my decision, taken the risk when I had decided not to accept HELP and Sunway scholarships. Either way, it's all up to fate to decide where I'm suppose to be. Anyway, I'm so glad everyone is moving on so well. Growing older, indeed :) Good luck in your future undertakings, peeps! :D

"There's only one reason I'm missing you, because you're worth missing. I don't know if you'll ever recognize me 10 years from now, but I 'll keep telling myself it's okay if you don't because I always will. One day, if we meet at the passage way, please, please just promise me, you'll be okay; as happy as always, as healthy as you have been. I will be like a surviving angel; showering you with hidden prayers and unconditional love."

The passage above is dedicated to all my specials ones. :)

P/S: Shopping at KL with Yih Mey tomorrow and Connaught's pasar malam on Wednesday! Let's gang bang =D LOL.

XOXO, JL / B.

Speechless.

2010-12-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

One of the three dislikes I have in my life - People who break their promises.

It's like talking with excitement, giving false hope and nothing happens.

I would rather not have any hope because then, I'll not get crush.

I'm so tired of planning and nothing happens. So, happy holidays!

Enjoy yourself.

I'm not mad, not emotional, not sad. I'm just speechless.

Please don't ask me to explain why I'm speechless cause then, I'll be seriously furious.

Just forget about it.

XOXO, JL / B.

Freedom. s2

2010-12-10T16:11:00.002+08:00

SPM is finally over, for me :D Good luck and all the best to Julia, Ziwah, Wei Tuck and others who are not over! Don't give up! :) I'm so happy but I'm surprised that I didn't scream as loud as I did after PMR. Oh wait. I didn't even scream. Guess I know that after-SPM means tougher life in the future.

Still. It's after SPM. Cheers peeps! =D

Had tonnes of fun with Yih Mey, Yee Xuan, Angel and Sim Hye. Thank you for being crazy! ;D

Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollows is a must watch man! The movie is so cool. Ratings: 4/5. Thumbs up! By the way, the jakuns, us watched the movie in Premiere Class for the first time. It was amazing. Less than 30 man in the cinema, couple seats, a table beside each seat, short exits, toilet beside the room, there are waiters who serve you. Haha.

Awesome people! :) 'Beware of high voltage.' Lol.

Despite being superbly happy with after-SPM, I'm going to miss CBN, my school of 11 years. :)

Short diary of my high school journey:
P/s: Don't read if you're afraid you'll be in it cause I'm going to spit everything out courageously, in my perspective. :)

Form 1 & Form 2.
The kiddiest(Does this word exist? Lol. Don't care, you get what I mean.) time of all. LOL. We talk about pet-sisters instead of the hottest boy in market. -.- I even got close to my buddy, Julia because of a senior! Hah. Got to know about Fantastic 5 when I was in Form 2 and with fate, Mae Yee is now my dai sou and Sue Zanne is my jie! ♥ Thank you Pet for her hardwork too. If you're reading this, I'm passing it down to my junior. :) I leave my primary school group of friends to join a group of Chinese students. My Chinese then was.... Haha. You can picture it. But I've never regretted my choice. :) I received lots and lots of letters. And I'm still keeping them. ;D They seemed to be a good reminder.

Form 3.
The best time of lower secondary despite PMR. This was the year where my group of buddies bond to each other the closest. We had so much fun. Everything was so simple then. No boys, still. LOL. As far as I remember, that year was all about good and awesome time. Yee Xuan joined the group later that year. She always said that we changed her and she's very thankful. So, if you're reading this girl, we did not change you. Cause it's not easy to change a person. But you definitely decided to join us! =)

Form 4.
I took the longest time to think about what to say about my Form 4 life. I guess most of you knew what happened when I was in Form 4. I've been running away from this topic for very long now. I'm going to bring down the wall today since high school is officially over now. Everything should be over. My first step into 4U, I hated that class so much for breaking my group's friendship apart. Everyone was splitted to different classes. I was really lucky, I was in the same class with Julia and Ziwah. Unfortunately, Ziwah was unable to attend school for quite some time that year. She did not tell me what was wrong then. I always felt left out. I got into my worst time when I realize I can't trust anyone, or so I thought. Thankfully, Carmen was there. Carmen, I know you'll be reading this. Thank you so much for being there for me. I guess I'll probably enter the mental hospital if it wasn't for you. It was that serious to me then. I cried almost everyday in school. But what everyone did was, stared at me and probably in their hearts, they said I deserved it; as if they really knew what happened. I mean, honestly. Who really knew what happened? Well, I don't. At least, not the entire thing though. I'm just so sorry for falling for a guy for the first time and losing my best friend, giving my complete trust and being naive. I'm definitely in fault, one way or another. :) However, there are also some good news. I got close to Yih Mey since she decided to attend classes at KITA. I still remember how I finally decided to let you know what happened at Popular, our claypot chicken rice time, our little 'Privacy'. Overall, Form 4 is the worst time for me. Not honeymoon. LOL.

Form 5.
The best time of my entire high school life. :D Despite what I faced last year, I'm actually very thankful because the experience actually made me a tougher and probably, a better person. I faced just as much challenge this year during my IU Day and drama competition. I'm just so glad it all ended so well. =D I was really fed up with one of my primary school friend. I still don't know what's the problem, but I had decided to let it go. If you're reading this, I've never hate you until you started to act really, really weird. For your information, it's not just me. So, if I can take time to evaluate myself, to apologize for something I've did or never do, to tell you that you can still be a wonderful friend at times; probably you should do the same. Sometimes, we just need to change and to stop thinking that we're always right. I learnt that last year. :) Anyway. I got so close to my classmates that I'm really missing them now. :( Haha. This year, was my very first time, to kinda of getting into a relationship. Lol. I forgot when it begun but I just knew it was quite sudden. I'm so glad that I'm still friends with him and I owe you this, thank you for everything. :) Julia, Ziwah and I are like three sisters. Ziwah got into her first.... UHHH. TROUBLE. Lol. I'm so glad you decided to confide in me. And, if you're about to say thank you, you're welcome! :p Your case is so similar to mine that it was quite hilarious to me. LOL. All in all, in my perspective, I've no friendship problems at all for now. I'm neutral, I'll be okay with whoever, whenever. Or maybe like what Yih Mey said, she's neutral and I'm pH 7.1 or 6.9. LOL.

If you've decided to read this, expecting yourself to be in it, I hope you'll have no hard feelings or what-so-ever. I'm letting go, you should too. We probably should go out for a movie or drinks and start from zero. I really don't mind. :D High school is over, high school drama should over too.

Wow, really long post. My blog is alived. :D

XOXO, JL/ B. ♥

Goodbye High School.

2010-11-14T18:41:00.001+08:00

12th November 2010 - The day where Fifth Formers of SMK CBN Class 2010 officially leave high school.

This place, will definitely be missed. :')

The Unions s2 (with one tersesat kiddo.) -.-

Hearts :)

Buddies in Unions.

With the darlings. :)

With Miss Faridah.

With the awesome teacher, Puan Lim. :D

What's high school without a bunch of buddies? :)

Memories.

This will be my final post till 9th December 2010. So, do abandon this blog for a while. :)

Hopefully, our batch will create another remarkable history in SPM. :D

Good luck & all the best! =)

XOXO, JL / B.

The Possibilities.

2010-11-06T22:29:00.001+08:00

Possibilities. They give you hope, and they crush it.

懂得讓我流淚的人　給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕　你同時點亮了星辰

By: Tank - 非你莫屬

就让他带走你的那瞬间成为我们的纪念
谁能发现我的世界曾经有过你的脸

By: Shivia Lee - 我们的纪念

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

By: Eminem ft. Rihanna - Love The Way You Lie

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
Don't need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back, got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

By: Jordin Sparks - Tattoo

傷心的總會任性灰心的總會用氣力
將最好的過去將最多的細碎
鎖到屬於你的眼睛

By: Vincy ft. Ocean - 我的回忆不是我的

Goodbye Sunway. Hello Life.

XOXO, JL / B.

Exhausted.

2010-11-01T23:02:00.001+08:00

I really hope SPM is going to be over like....tomorrow. I just want to get over it as soon as possible. I'm really, really tired. I told myself not to attend any outings, cut down on TV shows and dramas, force myself to study a little more every night and etc. But what I really want is to actually get over everything, asap.

I've been a CBN-er for my entire life. 11 years. As for now, it's the matter of days before I leave high school, forever. (Form 6 is another story, always is.) I'm leaving the place that most probably gave me the most memories I ever had in my life. They always said that school is like your second home and I couldn't agree more. I spend hours there, probably more than I thought. I think the hardest thing of leaving high school, leaving CBN is because you have to leave your buddies, friends and superb classmates and wonder if you'll ever meet them again. Well, no matter how many times you argued with them, said you hate school, cursed the teachers and homework(s); there's only one conclusion. You'll still miss high school.

But hey. Life goes on. You'll eventually move on and get over high school, I guess.

12th November 2010- It will be the last day for the Form 5 Class 2010 of SMK Convent Bukit Nanas before they officially leave their beloved high school, forever. (Uhhh...SPM excluded.)

All of us will probably run around the school compound with camera(s) in hand. Probably 'flood' disaster will happen too. Well, you get the picture.

Till then.

XOXO, JL / B.

Life's short.

2010-10-26T19:29:00.001+08:00

In my dictionary, being contented is simple. In fact, I think it is the contentment which everyone will have in their dictionary.

Contentment is being surrounded by your loved ones; family and best buddies, being cared and love, have less worries in life (since no worries are impossible) and just simply talk, smile and laugh the entire day.

Well, this post is not about my family though. It's about my friends, my close friends.

I have to admit that the bond between us was fragile; probably still is. I don't know to what extend of friend we will be after high school, but. I know we'll have something before we leave. We might not see each other ever again, but if we ever catch up on each other 10 years later, I think we'll 'click' just as well. Maybe we had some rough beginning but I already have a perfect ending in mind. If only we could start all over again, there's only one thing I wish for.... keep the large amount small. (:

For 5 years, we've been through so much together. We may have other friends which we may have known longer but, the time we spent together, I think it's priceless.

Hopefully, we will never forget the time we had and will be having. We should really treasure and appreciate each other more.

Buddies are define as close friends, only closer. =)

XOXO, JL / B. ♥

Lucky Lee ♥

2010-10-23T23:20:00.001+08:00

Lucky Lee was an awesome dog for 11 years ; and he still is my awesome dog.

Childhood. =')

With Lucky Lee. (:

Adorable, isn't he? :)

When he was healthy and fit.

@ my birthday party.

He was shivering.

The last moment of his life.

Today, I cried buckets for my past. I know I have to stop crying for my past and I hate myself for crying when Lucky died. He was suffering. He did not eat for two days. He should leave. I was the only one who did not agree on putting him to sleep at first, however, I knew he was suffering. Reluctantly, I gave in.

Thank you to Ziwah dear. She brought some good news to my life today. Not forgetting, thank you to everyone who gave me their support and condolences. Appreciate it :)

I don't know if I'll get a new dog. If I do, it will be a new beginning and Lucky will be a memory. He's a pampered dog. Every morning, he will come to me and put his head under my palm when I'm wearing my school shoes. Every evening, he'll bark enthusiastically and make circles when my dad take him out for an evening walk. He is, indeed a lovely dog to have! =)

Thank you for all the sweet memories you brought to the Lee Family, doggie! :)

I believe in one thing now. If it was meant to be, let it go and it will return; if it doesn't, then it never was meant to be.

P/s: You will always be part of my life, Lucky Lee! (:

XOXO, JL / B. ♥

Screwed.

2010-10-18T23:22:00.001+08:00

I really, really, really hate BM.

UPSR - B for my BM Pemahaman.
PMR trials - B for BM.
And now, SPM trials; it's B+.

It's really B-M. Pfffftttt.

Damn. Why do BM even exist. I've never want to learn this subject.

P/S: Ziwah is so huggable! Like my big teddy! Haha. :D

Attn: Buddies, Yih Mey needs to confirm everything about the Penang trip by November. :) Buddies' friends who are interested are most welcome! Eg. Ziwah's friend OR Julia's friend and even my own friends. ;) LOL.

Details as follow:

Date: 27th - 29th December 2010.
Estimated price: RM 200+ (accommodation, transport and food)

XOXO, JL / B ♥

I'm fine.

2010-10-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry Dad, I'm sorry Mum. I know both of you are worried.

Please do not worry about me.

I'm fine, I promise.

Always.

2010-10-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

Random:

Ziwah asked me, "Why are you so realistic?" Because I've learnt. (:
Talking about you made me realise.... you are still here, never left.
Love Carmen's facebook status :) She's right.
I hate to admit this, but my brother is freaking smart. I'm stress. -.-
Love Juwita Suwito's Only In The Dark.
Went shopping with mummy at Jusco Taman Maluri today. :D
Screwed up my BM paper. :'(
Exam is over, but I'm not feeling the way I'm suppose to.
Angel, Yee Teng, Sim Hye, Nathalie, and Julia are attending prom! Woots! :D
Love the combination of Chuck and Blair. =)

XOXO, JL / B. ♥

Chocolates! s2

2010-10-12T23:28:00.001+08:00

Instead of having a proper dinner, I've been munching on chocolates for two days now. It's a way for me to release tense and stress. Plus, I don't have the appetite for dinner. Chocolates are just so sweet and lovely. =)

They are my life-saver, every time! :)

Today was my last day at Kasturi! I'll never set foot in Kasturi anymore. No more Freddy lessons. LAST DAY sounds like.... bidding goodbye to everything you once cherished; and that's sad. :( But life is a journey. We'll have to move on, and by moving on, I meant to never look back.

It was...weird at Kasturi today. Hopefully, it's just me and not you. Or did this afternoon just made us realise; we are no longer friends?

Prom, Julia's in. Yes, I'm talking about JULIA LIM SHIN YI.. Surprise, surprise! ;)

People from my past will always, always leave a mark in my life. I'll not regret having them in my life because they are the reason I've changed. I knew you, and despite the intention of knowing you more, I know I never will.

Okay. I hate this feeling of leaving. Last paper for trials tomorrow made me realise I'm leaving high school very, very soon. Less than 60 days, in fact! All the grumbles about school and homework and rules, I know I'll miss them. I try to picture myself walking into a class with no familiar faces around, it'll be like starting Year 1 all over again. And, I barely remember my Year 1 except the fact that I did not cry when my mum left. :D

I'm going to miss you, friend or foe.

XOXO, JL / B. ♥

101010.

2010-10-10T11:02:00.004+08:00

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
But keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well, there will be an exception.

Today marks 10.10.10, which only happens every 100 years.

And I'm really grateful for all the things I once had. :)

XOXO, JL / B. ♥

Gossip Girl ♥

2010-09-20T22:31:00.001+08:00

I may not know Edward Westwick in person but I definitely know Chuck Bass. And he's, AAAAHHHH! :)

A MUST-WATCH! ♥♥♥

You'll hate him so much at first....

And then, deeply, madly, truly in love with him. ♥

Charming :)

Cuteeee =D

Coolest guy on TV. Haha.

Dudududidalalala :P

Another hottie :S HAH!

Ohh, I love them too ; just not madly. -.-

MSN display picture :D

My wallpaper!
"The reason we can't say those three words to each other, isn't because they aren't true."

I'm sorry if I bored you like how I bored Julia and Ziwah today at school. But they are (or him!) too hard to resist. :P I'm totally into him, them, the entire show now. :D

In short, Chuck Bass is hot, sexy, cute, sweet. =) And, Gossip Girl rocks! :D

Final call.

2010-09-04T23:56:00.001+08:00

It's time to activate some nerd mode babeh! =D

Can't wait for the moment to celebrate the awesome-ness with them! S2

They are the ones whom I love being with :)

I know we'll have an awesome time together at Kuala Terengganu! :D

Yes, let's do it. One last call.

Till then, leave me alone ; please.

I need some peace in my life. Especially now :)

A big no to troubles. :)

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you.

And thank you to those who had always been there! ♥

Last but certainly not least, GOOD LUCK! :)

The Happy Ending! :D

Till then. :)

Amusement.

2010-08-30T22:55:00.001+08:00

I know it's too soon to think about all the fun that all the fifth formers will be having after our pathetic yet very important SPM examinations. But gosh! It's official. Primula Beach Resort, Kuala Terengganu. =D

Nice beach :D

20th-23rd December. It will definitely be a walk to remember :)

Nevertheless, it's sad to say that not the entire buddies gang will be able to make it due to restriction from their respective parents. :( Don't worry, maybe we will have another safer trip? Somewhere closer? Genting, anyone? =D

you're the best thing that's ever been mine.

Last Time.

2010-08-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
先走了去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出等不到天亮
所有回忆抹去却并不容易
生死由天决定不要太伤心
在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我永远爱你。

Click here for this heart-ridden song :)

I'm still waiting for Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are official music video. =D

I'm sorry.

2010-08-22T22:21:00.002+08:00

I've always thought I could be a really good friend when my good friend needs me. I guess I was wrong.

I'm really sorry that I threw tantrums on you. I was just so fed up.

You always said no one will understand you, but have you ever let us try to understand you? Or am I the only one who never understands? I've just read your blog. Somehow, it seems like I don't understand you after all. I'm sorry I'm such a lousy friend. I should have known something is never right.

Honestly, at times, I would really much like to go up to you and ask, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? But I paused and realized that you've never want to share it with me. I don't know why, I thought you could at least rely on me after 5 long years when something terrible happened. Guess I was wrong once again. I'm just not that trustable perhaps. I'm sorry for making you feel that way.

I really hope that one day you will have the courage to tell me what's wrong.

But until that day comes, I'm really sorry for being such a lousy friend when you're in need.

You know, 3 things that I hate the most are people who breaks their promise, people who take advantage on others and people who always think they are right.

You had did the first one. But I hope you did it with a valid reason although you did not tell me the exact reason for it. You may say I'm just pure sensitive, thinking too much; Well, I'm sorry but I am sensitive.

Everyone knows I don't get mad at people easily. Or even if I do, it won't last. I'm not mad at you, I'm just mad at myself.

Either way, I'm glad you have someone else to rely on at your bad times. I'm just sorry that it's not me.

I know you'll read this. I know you'll know it's you I'm talking about. I know you'll get into tears reading this.

I'm sorry that it has to be this way.

What if...

2010-08-18T16:50:00.000+08:00

you were created to save your elder sibling?

Watched My Sister's Keeper. My eyes were sore and red, so yeah. Su Ann won the bet! I cried like nobody's business. -.-

Touching story indeed! =')

"It's the biggest nightmare and yet, the sweetest memory I am left with. Sometimes, I wish I have never known you."

Currently listening to : Feels Like Home by Edwina Hayes. S2

Thank you.

2010-08-08T01:00:00.001+08:00

I've tried avoiding in every way I can. I don't know, I just feel like escaping from all the school politics. It's so depressing. All-girls school can be so pathetic at times.

Anyway, thank you so, so, so very much to all my awesome buddies and good friends! You girls know who you are. :)

The newborn kitten we found behind our house. WITH THE UMBILICAL CORD STILL ON IT.

Thanks Dad and Mum! ♥ Alain Delon heels babeh! Hahaha. I'm obsessed with heels recently LOL.

Happy B'day primary friend! Have a blast ;D

SPM IS GETTING REALLY CLOSE.

And I'm really, really scared :/

Tears and Happiness.

2010-07-31T21:43:00.005+08:00

Describe an event where tears and happiness blend in at the same time.

If this year's SPM English Essay has this question for the Continuous Writing, I'm quite confident in scoring the paper. HAH. Real life experience always helps in essay writing one way, or the other.

Ms Sarah is leaving. English class for the Unions will be entirely different from now on. No more '5K', no more 'immunity', no more 'pretend-to-listen-while-you-do-your-add-maths'. That's sad. :( However, I sincerely wish Ms Sarah all the best in her future , in Kansas! Unions miss you, love you. =D

Why do good things never last. Oh well. THAT'S LIFE, DEAL WITH IT. Hah, Ms Sarah's favourite quotation. :)

The gift for Ms Sarah :)

Memories. s2

The card =')

With Ziwah buddy! :D

The moment. :)

Tears and Happiness define us. =)

Had this LONG seminar at INTI Subang this morning. Add Maths was bored-till-death. Puan Lim is simply awesome. Really sorry for all the dissappoinments the Unions gave you. =/ English was better, thankfully. The lecturer actually asked which school taught you guys about thesis statement and topic sentences? I was so close to raising my hands up cause Ms Sarah did taught us about it. I'm so proud. Haha.

Tang Yuen Soy Milk, Kiwi Iced, Scones. :D

With her. :)

Ziwah! Heeee.

Yours truly :)

Sorry for spending time with you and taking it back. I hope what I heard is wrong. I know you're a very understanding person. Thank you and sorry, once again. Cheers :)

Just got to know why you're so down recently. Hope you'll get over it soon. Take care :)

I thought I've ended one friendship in the most worst and horrible way . I WAS F'CKING WRONG. Cause this time, I'm going to end it way horrible and terrible. Cold. Say anything you want, I don't give a damn anymore. Sick of it and mind everyone, I ain't the first one. Sometimes, I'm still concern about my talkless friends, I asked others about them. Worried when they're in their jacket or just simply moody. By the way, so sorry if you think I'm talking about you. My apologies.

I'm not going to post anything about you like an adult scolding a deaf kid.

AWESOME DAY TODAY =D

Never mind.

2010-07-24T00:14:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty sure I screwed my Biology paper today. And I totally screwed up the Syarikat Berhad part for Accounts. Oh, never mind. It's over. :)

I have to agree with Carmen that most girls if not all are just overly sensitive and being dramatic at most times. When it comes to certain disagreement, they keep it in heart. That's worst than boys fighting in public when something's not right. Being in an all-girls school for more than a decade now, I got that definition long, long ago. We're 17, isn't it time to grow up a little? Oh, never mind. I better shut up before anyone is offended. P.s: I'm generally referring to everyone. :)

I feel like escaping after SPM. I've always have this dream of going around the world, seeing things before settling down. And that's if I ever settle down. Hah. I know many will not believe that I'm not a marriage type of person. But to those who know me well enough, they will know I'm the one who wants freedom. Oh, never mind. I'm kinda sick of explaining stuffs. :)

I couldn't stress more that this year has been an awesome one! :D Life has been good. Nothing much really went wrong except a few school politics. But never mind! I don't really give a damn to it anymore. If you hate me, then I hate you too. If you like me, I'll definitely love you. :D Your call. :)

I'll be commiting a sin. I'm sorry. But all I can tell myself to feel better is never mind, it'll be fine. :)

Buddies outing tmr! S2 Now, this is what you call friends-without-drama-which-understand-each-other-just-by-looking-into-the-eyes-and-can-totally-be-trusted-with-your-heart-and-soul. :) And for this, I'll never say never mind to anything about them. :)

Hectic weekends.

Save The Best For Last.

2010-07-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

Awesome song! :)

Good luck to the buddies, Unions and all who will be sitting for tmr's exam. Not forgetting, thanks for all the wishes! :D

Good night, readers. I'm off facebook for a week. :)

s2

2010-06-27T18:08:00.002+08:00

Currently listening to : The First One - Boys Like Girls.

I was going from one blog to another today and Jia Wing's blog, the post entitled 'At Seventeen', it's a nice one! I think everyone at our age should just read it. Well-written Jia Wing :) Anyway, click here and I'm sure you'll agree with me. Not forgetting, Pik Ki's blog. It's undeniable that there's politics everywhere. Either way, I think our board did an awesome job together! =)

This year, it's just full of memories. (: Come to think about it, it's not even after SPM yet but I had had the best time in my entire high school life. Honestly, the early half of this year had took the place of the great moments I had in Form 3. But I'll never forget Form 3 because that's the only moment I left to reminisce of the perfect picture of friends.

Since we can never move back, I guess we just have to accept the fact of moving forward. Reluctantly, this year, I've did it. I tend to still think about it sometimes, only to find questions which I know I will never get the answers. Sometimes, I can't help but to wonder if you will ever think the same. And nope, if other people think they know, think again.

Form 4 was the hell of my high school life. Full stop.

However, this year, I'm just so glad that the entire thing went so well for the first half. Let's just hope the second half will be just as awesome! =D Since it's the second term of the academic year, it's going to be a nerdy one. Haha. But going through it with the Unions and buddies, I think I'm going to enjoy myself just as much. Teehee! :)

To a few friends out there, I know love life for you guys had been rough. To the one who is waiting, please stop waiting. You have to stop thinking about him and anything related to him. Cause that's the only way you can do it no matter how hurt you'll be. We will be so worried about you if you ever get yourself involve again. To the one who is kind and letting go, since I know all of you, I don't know what to say. Honestly, sometimes I can't tell despite knowing certain things. But seriously, I respect you for whatever you're doing. :) And nope, it's not your fault. To the one who feel so fed up and whaddafuck, I'm actually surprise and glad at the same time because you decided to share your story with me. (: I hope you'll be able to stay strong and get over that jerk! LOL. Oh c'mon, since you can call him a jerk, then I'm sure you know he's not The One. To the one who still can't let go and still holding on, I think I've told you what you should do. Cause I really hope to see you move and not get hurt anymore. Either way, I'm here if you feel like breaking down. And finally, to the one who just broke up, stay strong :)

Oh Wei Tuck. I know you've warned me. But damn! The song is a little TOO EMOTIONAL. To those emo dudes out there, click here.

I don't know if what I'm feeling now is being emo or just a sudden attack of stupidity. Either way, I'm here to say....

Love is a feeling. Not a game.

My sincere wishes to all of you out there. *winks*

Memoirs.

2010-06-12T00:12:00.000+08:00

Grandma and I :)

It has been quite a time since any of my immediate family members passed away. Hence, attending the ceremony with all the tradition stuffs is like... "What? There's such rule?" to me. One of the rules is: I'm not allowed to attend any upcoming funeral / parties. Also, I'm not suppose to go other people's house. It's believed to bring others bad luck. Oh well, tradition.

My grandma and I, honestly. We ain't superbly close to each other. But there's just something that she leave me with. I still remember when I was a child, she used to give me 'pocket money' every single time I visit her. The way she used to hold my hands and said, 'Yat ting yew kan lik tok shu, zhi dou mou?' and I'll nod my head. Her smiling face when she sat on her favourite rocking chair. Now, all these remain as faithful memories.

Passed away peacefully at 1.02am, 11th June.

Rest in peace, grandma.

From your beloved 'kah shun'; - P.s: that's another new term I learnt today. :)

My Dream Story of Success.

2010-06-09T11:52:00.002+08:00

He says, "Your future lies in your own hands." He is the one who keeps pushing me to strive during my exams. He is the one who showers my family and me with all the love he has. He is the one who keeps my head up and eyes open for my future. He, is my father. He is my inspiration and he is definitely a big part of my success.

As a seventeen year old girl, it is normal to live in dreamland. I dream to have my very own public relation company since I was 12 years old. Just like my father, organising events and parties and seeing me in the success of the entire event is a feeling that words cannot describe. Despite being a science stream student, I realise my dream has nothing to do with science. Many said that getting into science stream was my wrong option but I will say that, it is nothing wrong in gaining extra in life.

Success leaves a big impact in my life. My definition of success is simple: Live a dream, succeed with it. Many of us out there seem to think that failure is unacceptable and success must be the only thing in life. However, I do not agree. Yes, success is important. In life, who will ever want to be an underdog? Nevertheless, failure is one of the routes to success. We will eventually learn a lesson through our failures and that is how we earn our success.

If you ask me, what is the right thing to do in order to succeed in your dreams? Please bear in mind that all study and no play makes Jack a dull boy. I do think that certain parents’ restrictions like you-are-not-suppose-to-attend-any-parties or come-back-once-your-school-ends are ridiculous. Fortunately, my parents are nothing like that. They do agree that attending outdoor activities in school and a few parties will bring me no harm. As teenagers, we need to know more than our books and school. The world is so huge, why restrict it to so small? Sometimes, it can be an eye-opener to simply have fun.

Often, headlines like “A village girl bags top awards at international awards ceremony” and “Blind man shows his extraordinary talent” appear. I am totally inspired by them. It is already tough for an ordinary people like us to reach extraordinary success. But people that are slightly less fortunate compared to most of us are able to achieve huge success, it is just amazing. Hence, it is true that nothing is impossible. If you are ready to work hard, you will be able to achieve success in life despite the obstacles you will meet at intervals.

Now, if you think that you are dreaming of the impossible, be it. No matter how tough is your life now, it can change. It will change. As long as we grasp hard to the word ‘strive’, I strongly believe that we will be able to change our life for better. Begin now, do what you think you should instead of what others ask you to. Of course, do take in advices. They can be useful at times. Nevertheless, it is often said that we know ourselves the best and that is true.

As for me, I know I am nowhere near in being the next Chief Executive Officer of a public relation company. Therefore, I am here; to write this story, to tell others my dream. Maybe with a little luck, someone extraordinary is reading this and it might just be my dream comes true. Well, nothing is impossible.

it happens all the time;

2010-06-06T11:35:00.001+08:00

One after another.

There must be something wrong with me, or is it just my destiny?

I used to stand on a principal but now, it seems to get further and further away. What I did last time, people told me it was wrong. However, when I tend to change, people tell me I go overboard. It's just like.... When I'm loud, people ask me to quiet down. When I'm quiet, people ask me "WHY YOU EMOOOO?" Gahhh, ain't these people hard to please?

Now. I've decided. It's either you like me or you dislike me. It's either you come to me or you go far, far away. I will not change who am I, not anymore. Cause I don't think it's wrong being me. It's too bad that in life, there will be people who love you and hate you. "That's life, deal with it," said Ms Sarah. :)

On the other hand, I've never been so happy since.... very long. LOL. I feel all the burden off me. Well, not precisely all.... SPM, damn. -___- My friends, they are just awesome ♥ Thank you so much peeps! =) Especially to the buddies and Unions =D Thanks for the belated card ; )

Holidays, ain't they sweetheart. LOL. Outings, outings and outings! =DDD Add maths project too :( And oh! I owe this someone a lot for helping me out in my project! Thank you :DDD There's this one thing that I feel myself very lucky to have: my awesome parents! Despite their concern, query and worry about me, they will still give me their trust and fate; which is to have my teenage life, the way it should be. The right amount of proportion, balance with studies and parties, just the same. (: And yeah, that's exactly how my brother and I are brought up. :)

Favourite Girl - Justin Bieber (Piano Version)
Need You Now - Lady Antebellum
What You Waiting For - Mizz Nina ft. Colby O' Donis
The Truth - Kris Allen
Saltwater Room - Owl City
Leave Right Now - Will Young

Buddies, can't wait to see you guys tomorrow! =DDD

Answers.

2010-05-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

But I'm losing you: Baby - Justin Bieber ft. Ludacris.

Seems like something's just aren't the same: Tongue Tied - Faber Drive

Instead of holding you, I was holding out: Second Chance - Faber Drive

Are we pondering over the same matter?

Contented.

2010-04-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

Carmen said, "I feel like how we were getting our PMR result."

Freaking true. It was definitely nerve-wrecking, to wait for the judges and listen to the results.

AND GUESS WHAT.

After all the staying back and skipping tuition.

WE ARE THE CHAMPS !! It was freaking touching. Everyone started to break down. =') Ms Sarah came to us and we hugged. It was damn sweet. :) We went to search for Puan Lim, she is happy for us too. She smiled non-stop. Moving on to seek for Puan Aizan, we bump into Puan Tan and she said, "I didn't know drama affects you guys so much." We laughed. =D Puan Aizan, thank you for your last minute coaching when Ms Sarah was not around. =))))

And we also manage to grab champion for the best character potrayed. Beng Xiong darling. LOL. =D

Unions, I can't express in words how gratitude I am to be a part of you.♥

Guess we'll celebrate tomorrow. Let's party! :D

intense.

2010-04-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

what is it like when everyone comes to you and tell you their problems when you actually have problems of your own?

I'm so tense and apparently, everyone thinks I'm okaaaay with it.

i'm no superwoman, peeps.

I just hope you are here just like you always were because somehow, you are the friend that used to get me all loosen up and get back to school with a smile. But somehow, recently, it's different. Perhaps I already know why and well, maybe I just didn't have the courage to believe it.

This is not being emo. This is fml.

Today

2010-04-18T18:09:00.000+08:00

is not my day. :(

my dog. 11 years. worth the tears.

you explained yourself. I'm confused. Guess it's normal.

don't want to get addicted to 16 year old baby boy who sounds like girl. lol.

this saturday. i'm helpless. pardon me. i hope no one blames me.

Kevin, Niki, Bosco = F, L, L. fml.

spot talk tomorrow. *gulps*

does too much unnecessary thinking. =/

Unions ♥

2010-04-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

Today, it's all about my classmates, the Unions. :)

More pictures in my fb profile! =)

Formal shot.

Candid shot.

Perfect shot. =D

You guys rock! ;) Love you guys! =D

It's a walk to remember. Unions, we are no nerds. :DDD

Jealousy is a disease. Get well soon! :p *siapa makan cili, dialah terasa pedas*

Cheers! :)

2010-04-14T23:32:00.003+08:00

Carmen said my previous post sounded emo so I'm gonna clarify here that I was never emo. =D It's just a much formal way of writing my blog and my guess is that you guys weren't quite used to it. hah. By the way, the bold part is a phrase from a novel which I like so much and it sticks to my head. -.-

Happy Sweet 17th darling Pikki! :D

The group. :)

It was a great day! Had fun with the MECP. =)

Darling, I do hope you have a great day too! I know you went through a lot this month and I really hope you can be tough as long as you need too. I know it ain't easy, trust me; I've been there and it's way worst. Don't be too pessimistic but try to think on the brighter side. Let it be a lesson learnt! My jie told me that when I was at the down hole of my life and it totally changes my perspective then. I hope you can make it through. And we, will always be here. :)

Cherish today darl! All the best in 2010! Sayangs! =]

what does it really mean.

2010-04-13T20:59:00.000+08:00

One moment you are here and for God knows what happen, the other second you're gone. Do you know that this is how it used to happen? and you're making me going through the same thing all over again.

I do not know losing the Sunway Accounting Quest is a good news or a bad one. Probably good for me, bad for my group. Anyway, I say we tried and that's what mattered! : )

Probably shouldn't have hope.Cause hopes ain't reality and when you tend to realise that, you are already in deep trouble; suffocating to get out and no one will be able to help you.

Someway, somehow, I know this time is going to be utterly different. Cause this time,

I have my Unions and buddies with me. Thank God for that.

Sunway Accounting Quest.

2010-04-11T09:13:00.007+08:00

I got to wake up at 6.50am yesterday to go all the way to Sunway University College for Accounting Quest.

*sat for the exam, bla bla bla*

And no, we still don't know the results just yet. Finals on 8th May. FML. =D

The team. :)

Went back to school. Had McDonalds with Pik Ki and Carmen. Pik Ki was uhh, expressing herself loudly there. LOL.

Sat LRT home. Carmen lied. That's why she lose her chance. =p LOL.

Drools. ;)

2010-04-08T20:42:00.005+08:00

The exam season is finally over! I'm pretty sure I screwed add maths paper! :(

Anyways! Let's ignore the studies for now. I have loads of things going on now- Drama, IU Day, birthday parties and this Saturday, Sunway Accounting Quest are just few of them. Oh gosh, my time is so screwed! =(

When's the finals for drama again? lol. Anyone knows, please leave a comment on my cbox. Thanks! :)

Interactors, please be informed that you'll have to ditch your curriculum activities on Wednesday and Thursday until the due date of IU Day. And oh, performers too! We'll get a teacher to sign your co-co book of course! Practice makes perfect! =D I'm guessing that Interactors do read my blog. So, here it goes:

Yuan Ji, get the funding letters done as soon as you can; pass them to Yvonne and Schanny. Please type the committee list and send to me. :)
Yvonne, try finding more funds as long as it's before 8th of May. You just have to keep chasing them! :D
Carmen, you asked me about the buffet. I said it's possible but please don't go over budget okay? =)
Xin Yong, update me on what souvenirs are you guys planning to buy and what are you guys planning to do with the pineapples bought as well as door gifts. Please plan a budget list as well! :)
Pik Ki, I told Yee Teng abt your performance already. Ask her to brief you okay. =)
Sim Hye, i got drafts of the backdrop if you want them. :)

Okay people! Let's make this work! =) I know that 8th of May sounds quite impossible but well, just FYL. :D I can see that through this meeting, you guys are trying to make things work. which is good. :))))

Yih Mey, I decided to keep this short and simple. I'm not posting up any SOUNDS *unless you want me to! :p* LOL.

Just a simple word, thanks dear! And I mean it, for everything. =)))

I heard that you came to me cause you were trying to get some news from me. I just hope it isn't true.

Time, I love you.

17th b'day. =)

2010-03-27T23:59:00.004+08:00

Let's just hope it's sweet 17th the entire year! :)

Thank you peeps! s2 You people definitely made this b'day a memorable one. =D

Thank you to Pik Ki, Charissa, Audrey, Pui Ying and Pui Yan for the advance b'day presents. Thank you Carmen, you're the only friend who gave me my present on the day itself! Thank you pa, ma and gor! My brother deserved a mention here cause he bought me Espirit tee that I had been targeting. =DD As for others who apologised cause you peeps couldn't get the present in time, it's okay you know. I understand it's diagnostic. =/

Thank you for all the wishes! Phone calls, SMS, MSN or facebook, thank you! =) Let's give out some awards since Yuan Ji is despo for one. LMAO! ==

Most wishes- Yuan Ji. *she wishes through SMS, hp, hse phone, fb and msn. Complete package! lol.*
Most unexpected SMS- Mae Yee. *all the way from Aussie! Thanks dear!*
Most lame- Julia Lim. *made a prank on me. -.-*
Most chats- Audrey Leow. *kept dreaming of my Miller =pppp*
Most meaningful- Sue Zanne. *never fail to keep my heads up! :)*
Most first- Yih Mey. *right at 12am!*
Most last- Meng Tsu.
Most memorable - Yours. :)))

A few pictures on my Earth Hour b'day! =)

Supported Earth Hour. :D
Ever-supportive and loving parents! =)
17, bring me luck! ;)
With Lucky, 11 years man! :D
Homemade cheese cake! =)

I'm glad to hear you're okay. Take care! :)

With love, Mey Ling.

Insanity. :S

2010-03-21T11:22:00.003+08:00

Earth Hour on the 27th - Soooo... It's candlelight dinner then, anyone interested? LOL.

Of course not, everyone will be hugging their books day and night for the entire 3 weeks. Crap, 3 weeks sound too long. =(

As for Win Nie, the bio freak who can keep commenting on my fb status about how interesting bio is, darn you. :P Biology(especially form 5) is nothing but a total crap. lol. Who cares about pacemaker and vetebral column? Only you. =p

So, Sejarah paper 2 on the first day. I'm so glad that we don't have any papers on Friday(s). At least, we can have a longer break interval in between. I just realise I've forgotten everything about Progression and.... Is the 5U spot talk on tmrw? Screw me. -.-

All the best peeps! Especially to the Unions and my buddies! <3

It's 11.30am already. Time flies.

SH*T rules. XD

2010-03-18T22:19:00.002+08:00

Yuan Ji should be darn proud that I'm posting this. =p

yuan ji says:
playing games diff
needs concentration
like how you ohh siii
need to concentrate
and AIM CORRECTLY

I think a small part of the conver is enough just in case people under 17 do reads my blog. LOL!

Hey friends! I'm very fine now! :D Hyperness and happiness are now my life. No worries! :)))

Just a random thought: What will it be like after SPM? =) Freedom? or just total boredom? lol. Will each of us slowly become strangers? or friendship do lasts forever? Don't you think that you're actually living for your future? Are you a f*cking rich and famous 10 years from now or just a pathetic loner? Sorry, I'm always full of answer-less questions. This part of me can never change. :D

Sejarah paper 2 on the first day and I swear I haven't been touching sejarah the past few days. I will start touching them this Saturday. Chill lah, yuan ji. :P

Remember Me is out! Gosh, I hate exams. -.-

Surprised.

2010-03-16T13:53:00.003+08:00

Went to KLCC yesterday for an IU meeting with Su Ann, Steph, Brandon and Wy Mann. I was so surprised to see Yih Mey there. -.- She was with her mum and a little kiddo. xD Shopping, I guess. Her mum looked so young. :D LOL. Sorry buddy! Hope you don't have the feeling of being ignored again. =/ I am really busy with all my stuffs recently. Sorry that I broke my promise in celebrating your 17th birthday with you. But karaoke and movies right after diagnostic no matter what okay? =) Hope you're really okay with it. :)

Martin with the Unions - Angel, Charissa and Jia Le was awesome! =D I totally had no idea why were we laughing but it was a great day despite it was Anwar's class. =) It's total silence most of the time. Steph sat somewhere else with a guy that I don't know who. =p Just for Charissa and Angel's information, I'm going to cramp all my Martin classes to Thursday this exam season since we don't have any papers in Friday. Suat Ying, I'm with you now. :D LOL.

I was surprised by you. All I can say that moving on is never easy and living in the past is even harder. It was just nostalgic few days back. You know, it's never too late. Thank you for the kind words you said. They still meant a lot to me. =) And I definitely don't blame you, honestly. :) I am glad to have a friend like you too! You are always very helpful and nice! I really wish I could do as you said. But I just don't have the courage to do so and well, probably it's ego. For now, I'll just hope that our friend will be okay soon. :) As for you, I don't want you to feel bad. You're right, it's just 8 more months. You should just follow what your heart says and not follow the voices around you, including mine. Just do what you think is right. =] I really admire your courage, the way you face your problems. Ichiban! :D And you know what? There's no forever goodbye. Just as you said, you'll never know what might happen in the future. ;) Once again, thank you. =)

And dai sou! So long didn't hear from you! Aku miss you already lahh. =DDD

All the way! :)

2010-03-13T20:09:00.004+08:00

Let's revive my blog with some good news. :D

The Unions made it to finals. That's an awesome news! Screamed like nobody business. Lmao. We had only like two days to settle the drama. Thank god we made it! =) This prove that we're not academically incline, Ms Sarah. Definitely not nerds either. LOL :p Will have to sacrifice most of the time for drama practice after this. Last year in high school, why not. =D

Not forgetting, congratulations to other deserving classes that made it to the finals. ;)

Julia, Carmen and I will be joining this invention competition. Hopefully we'll make it to the finals. *fingers crossed*

Congratulations to my seniors who just got their SPM results last Thursday. Damn salute those who got straight A+. Jo Ann, well done! Freaking proud of you now. =D I hope your books will bring me some A+. -.-

Diagnostic in a week time. Kill me. This time, it's really tip-less. =/

Enjoy your Biology camp Julia dear! Take care! =)))

From now on, I'll treasure boredom and NEVER complain about it anymore.

Fish.

2010-02-28T12:00:00.003+08:00

I'm so into some chinese songs recently until I have to bring my earphone everywhere I go. And that includes when I'm shopping. Oh god, pathetic me. ==

Just try your ears on them :

Click here - 一刀了斷 by Chi Lam and Myolie Wu.
Click here - 擦肩而過 by Sam Lee.
Click here - 手放開 by Sam Lee.
Click here - 兩生關 by Kay Tse.
Click here - 差一剎的地老天荒 by Gallen Lo.

Just finished TVB drama series Born Rich. It's superb sial! =D That's when I don't online often and went on watching till 3am. xD Fyi, this series does not contain any Lam Fung or Kevin or Bosco which attracts me to watch. It's just the superb story line! Heee. :D

Next time if I have a son, I'll like to consider naming him Topman. Fuh! =p Lol.

To Sue: I'll always be here. Turn the frown upside down! You'll do fine. =)
To Yee: How's Aussie my dear? :)
To Carmen : Me want to read your blog if that's alright. =D
To Ki: Stay strong! Warm huggies! :)
To Ling: Stop thinking of watching Valentine's Day lahhh. ==

Sports Day this Saturday and me "sukarelawan". LOL! You know I'm sooo going to help you people rightttt? :pppp

Physics or Chemistry?
Both.

400th post.

2010-02-24T18:10:00.006+08:00

This update is specially dedicated to Lee Mae Yee, my dai sou aka my big sister! :)

I hope the book I gave you really heals your heart at Aussie! :D Since I didn't manage to include all these photos in the book, I hope you don't mind viewing them here temporarily. =)

Sisters (:
s2
@ Foo's room.
Random.
Siblings! :D
Sweety pies! =D
LMAO. ==
Your ever-supportive friends. =D
Take 2.
Group photo! :D
@ LCCT.
Reminisce. =)

Wipe the tears away cause we'll definitely meet again. :)

We love you, yee =D

Breathe.

2010-02-02T23:38:00.002+08:00

tmr is going to be a long day, that's all I'm aware of.

silence is golden
thank you meng tsu
welcome mae yee
take a deep breathe
it's a good experience

I want my big bear, bye.

Found.

2010-02-01T23:19:00.002+08:00

Just browsed through Olivia's blog. Her 14th January's post, I think I probably can guess what did Olivia and Yih Mey discussed about. == I'm so sorry that I let it affect us and yet, stop doing anything to save it. But just so you girls know, I really don't mind anything, anymore. ;)

I was lost once. I know there's a period of time that I stayed away from you girls. That's my lost season. Sometimes, people do need to be alone. Now that I found myself, I know that I've changed. I don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing for you girls but I'm so sorry that I won't be the soft-hearted one anymore. Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry or mad, I've just toughen up my principles. It's tiring to see how things used to be so pathetic. The one thing I guess you girls should be glad is that I'm still the same girl you girls once knew. The same girl who does not gets angry easily and still, blind in reading Chinese. xD

If I've ever made you girls felt hard to do or disappointed, I'm so sorry. But I'll just have to owe you girls another apology cause I still won't do anything.

Maybe you girls think it's just a small matter and I do agree. But it's that small matter that makes me feel that people changes so quickly that I barely know who are they anymore. Can I really put the word trust on anyone? I just don't know anymore.

I really do appreciate our friendship. And if it's meant to last, I'll treasure it forever. But to the ones that I had to let go, it's too bad.

I hope that after you girls had read this, you girls will try to understand my situation in my perspective. It's not that I don't want to do anything, it's just that I can't. I have my own ego to save. :)

Define trust.

Ziwahhh! :D

2010-01-31T13:22:00.000+08:00

Day: 30th Jan
Venue: Times Square
Humans: My buddiessss. =D

We love you Ziwahhhh! Take care :)))

With Ziwah :D
Take 2#
Take good care of yourself kayy? =)
@ Bowling Alley.
Yun Shi and Olivia.
With Oli. :D
Yih Mey and Yun Shi. =)
Don't know who take one. LOL.
Random.
Letters of friendship. :)
LMAO. ==
With Xuannn =D
With Yih Mey darl. =D
Them (:
Darl wants to kissie me. LOL.
Hearts s2Cause good friendship never dies. =)

Buddies with them since Form 1. :D The weird thing is, I was the only one who is not chinese educated and mind you, my Chinese used to be OCBC. lol. But surprisingly, I get along very well with them and now my chinese.... =DDDD HAHA. It was an awesome outing! Almost the whole gang went. We had tonnes of fun. =)

I know things changed a lot between us. Different class and stuffs but still, I'm glad we manage to keep up with each other's life.

And to Ziwah, we love you loads okay? =)

Bro's Birthday.

2010-01-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

Day: 28th & 29th Jan.
Venue: Esquire Kitchen, my house, Audrey's house, Fun OK Cafe.
Humans: Daddy, Mummy, Gor, Mae Yee, Audrey, Yi Theng, Pui Yan, Pui Ying, Win Nie, Kah Hoong, Meng Tsu, Wai Xiang, Them Hong, Jun Kiat, Chin Hong, Terence, Wan Qing.

I hope I didn't miss out anyone. And sorry if I did. =/

Since I got two more outings to post, I'll let the pictures do the talking.

28th Jan- Dinner at Esquire Kitchen. *which totally sucks cause I had to end up at home, missing my last time of Hari Membina Azam in school because I vomitted from 3am - 4am. =(*
Gor and dai sou. =DD
29th Jan- Bake cake at Audrey's house.
With Laughing Gor. LOL! =P
See-the-hair. Mae Yee. Meng Tsu. =PPP
- yee, + me.
With the bestest neighbour! :D
Mt. Ml. My. =)
The cake gang! =D
ROFLMAO.
The smashing cake =D
The gays. xD
The 2nd cake. ;)
=)
With the giant present from Fun OK Cafe. :D
With Lesbo. =D
With Audrey =)
Pui Yan and Kah Hoong. =D
With Win Nieeee. =)
With Yeeeee =D
Zoom for clearer image. LOL.
Self-timer picture. xD
With Kah Hoong. P/s: His leg sial. LOL.
Random. -.-
Guess what "balloon" was my bro blowing? :P
The gang :D

I went out 3 days straight hence, I cannot join the gang for Karaoke session tmrw. Really sorry. =/

I'm tired. *yawns*

Buddies ♥

2010-01-28T17:08:00.007+08:00

P/s: I'm blogging this with the super dong-dong Mae Yee THE GREAT beside me. LOL. =P

As planned, 4 buddies went out right after the last paper of our Intervensi. :D But instead of Times Square, we went to KLCC to watch Woohoo. And if you're wondering whether it is the Malaysian made movie, it is. xD We patriotic =D LMAO. It was a NOT BAD movie lahhh. :P

Went to Isetan and conquered one of their fitting rooms. Guess what we did? XDDD

Tadaa! LOL.
Buddies :D
LMAO. ==
Random. -.-
With Oliiiii. :D
With Yih Meyyy. =D
With Xuannn. =)
Oli's choice of the best picture.
But still, this one is the best. weeee~ =P
Jeann, don't jealous that we watched! LOL.

They made my day! =D Lovey-duvey!

Hopefully, this Saturday will work out. ;)

Jan babies! :D

2010-01-26T21:24:00.007+08:00

As promised, Happy Birthday Jan babies! =D

The gentle, kind and smart, 20th Jan- Carmen Chang Ee Min. I remember the first year I saw her in school, she was holding hands with her girlfriend. Back then, I used to think that she's not my type of friend as she's super-duper girlish. Lol, that was WAYYYY back then. == I'm so glad to have her as my classmate and friend for almost a year now. As you know, she ALWAYS finishes her homework on time. ;) lol. Thank you for those times you gave me your support and a listening ear! =)

Happy Birthday Carmen! :D

The helpful, supportive and dirty-minded (LOL!), 25th Jan- Michelle Ng Po Yi. I think the way I know her was super weird. Thinking back, it's like a hugh joke now. lol. But fortunately, the wrong turns brought us good moments. :D Now that you leave high school, I can't give you your present on time. We'll see when we can meet up together okay? :) Just so you know, you're always my inspiration to keep going. Solar car for example. Thank you so much for everything! =D

Happy Birthday Mummy! =P

The loud, hyper yet caring, 26th Jan- Soam Ler Yinn. Okay, I had searched all my folders and I realise that this is the only picture I have with her. I was like....wtf? LOL. And I thought I knew her since Form 1? One picture and that's it? lol. I'm so gonna catch her to take pictures with me soon. :P She is a nice friend, no doubt. Although sometimes, I just don't quite get her. But anyway, how well can you know a person right? =) Thank you for those times you said you understand and well, making me understand! :)

Happy Birthday Ler Yinn! =D

28th January- my babeng brother's birthday. But I'll leave that for later. lol.

Good night for now. Sweet dreams peeps! :D

And oh! Intervensi is officially over! =D

Fuel up.

2010-01-23T22:39:00.003+08:00

I really have to fuel up. I felt so dummy. :/

That's most probably because I didn't really take Intervensi by heart. Sorry to say that though. xD I told myself that I'll have fun for now, just for the first few months. :) And oh. Next Tuesday, buddies outing to watch movie at Times Square. Just right after our last paper; Biology 1 and Physics 1. =/

I'm feeling super-duper fine now despite making "wantans" every single second. LOL! And it's always good to have these kind of feelings. =D my fourth resolution really came true. ;) and I'm so glad. :DDD

I'm going to wish all the January babies in one post right after my Intervensi so I hope those Jan babies wouldn't mind. =)

And whoever that person who uses my name in my cbox, can you like use your own name next time? Thank you. :)

I had this very weird dream the other day. Too bad I woke up. I really wanted to know the answer though. lol. I've been doing loads of thinking every night. Good ones though, really positive ones. =]

P/s: Yo Ziwahwahwahwahwah! LOL. =P

I love surprises, btw. :P

Boo! =D

2010-01-16T23:44:00.002+08:00

when you try to smile, you'll smile. :)

Unions: batch 09/10. :)

Miss Choo: You all better don't fail. If you all fail, I'll tell your Ma that her darlings failed. As if we already had not enough of pressure. ==

All the best and good luck to my Unions and buddies! :D Good luck to me too! lol.

Untouchable - Taylor Swift ♥

Old abandoned house.

2010-01-15T23:35:00.004+08:00

Do you know how things change in one second? It's so prompt that you wouldn't even realise the changes but it just matters so much that it kept you thinking.

I wish I have the ability to read people's mind. I wish I know what they want so that I can settle things off with them. I wish I could gain courage to speak up. I wish I don't have to be in such condition.

Yet, no one will even be close to understand what I'm feeling. The feeling of being betrayed and unappreciated... It's like a knife stabbing right through the heart, tearing it to many little pieces. So I doubt anyone ever felt this way. It's an unreleased anger; so furious that you just wouldn't know how to express it out.

Do you know how those old abandoned houses feel when they are left by the roadside due to certain reasons? And those eyes that stared at it, just like murdering daggers. That's exactly one of the many conditions I'm in now.

I love how add maths always has a solution. Where's mine?

ICUCIC IT.

Buzzer.

2010-01-09T18:11:00.004+08:00

First week of school reopen... What can I say? It's awesome to be senior among all seniors. ;) Our class teacher is super-duper lovable! :D Pn Lim, the Unions always had and always will be your faithful students! =DDD

But I'm very, very tired. And not that I expect anyone to understand what I felt. Hopefully, everything will go smoothly on Monday. =/ I've been reaching home about 5pm-6pm for the past few days. Exam is like 1 week away; and I've not really been studying anything. Everything is so crap. I know the souvenirs team had bought their souvenirs but not to worry, I won't let anything go wrong. It'll be on as scheduled. Yuan Ji is right, I have to stay optimistic. Worst come to worst, I'll.... But it'll happen, it will. =)))

We had a practice at my house today. We manage to practice the whole thing in just 3 hours. *claps claps* :D Just a little push and you girls will make it. Don't worry :) And please don't compare on the way I dance with the way you girls did because I started choreographing the dance the past 2 days so of course there will be a gap. You girls will do fine, trust me. In addition to that, thank you very much to Carmen, Yuan Ji, Yen Yi and Pei Yin! =)

I wish there's someone unexpected to tell me everything will be fine, so when things go really bad, at least I can still hope that something unexpected will happen. Well, just a really dreamy thought of mine. haha.

Oh btw. Really sorry to Yuan Ji for the unexpected midnight call. I just felt terrible yesterday night. But don't worry, I'm super okay now. :)

It messed me up, need a second to breathe.

Hello-wello 2010! :)

2010-01-01T20:28:00.003+08:00

I got to admit that 2009 past by in a blink of an eye. Maybe that's because Form 4 life was hectic like nobody's business. Honeymoon year? I don't think so. It's work at most time and how can that be honeymoon right? ==

2009 was......indescribable. It's either I'm on cloud nine or the other way round. But even if I get another chance on how to live my life in 2009, I'll still choose the same path. Maybe that's because I finally know what is it like, to learn. After all, isn't it all meant to be? :)

From 3W moving on to 4U was tough. It's a total different environment with different people. Got to admit that 2008 was a superb one! =) But 2009 wasn't that bad. I had my fair share of joy. One thing that I'd like to clarify is that us, the Unions aren't nerds. We're just trying harder than others in studies and to balance that off, we are also playing harder than others. A fair example, good results vs. Ms Ma's farewell party. So yes, we ain't nerds. :D Thanks classmates! =D

Moving on to friends out of 4U. What can I say? They were just as great! :D My buddies especially! :) Not forgetting, my fellow fifth formers that will be moving on to their respective colleges. Thanks for everything! :D Especially Michelle, Jo Ann and Nicola. ;)

I know some questions are meant to left answer-less but to query is never a sin right? =) 2009, thanks for the memories! I'll miss you. =)

NOW, HELLO-WELLO 2010! =D

SPM, I'll wait for you. lol. It's finally my last year of high school. Crap, is that fast. == After 11 years, it's finally my last year in CBN. =/ Even if I'm really not in the JPA's list next year *which I hope that won't happen*, I won't be continuing my form 6 studies in CBN.... So, it's really the last year in CBN for me. And hell yes, I'll miss it. Anywoots! It's going to be a struggling year. It's my last shot. :)

Time for resolutions! I have only 4 this year and let's hope it'll all come true. :D

10 A+ for SPM 2010.
International Understanding Day.
Friendship.
Not being the lucky one choosen for National Service. ==

They said they want next year's countdown to be at Genting? Okay, sure. No problem! Haha.

Last but not least, Happy New Year peeps! May this year be your year! =D

New Year Countdown.

2009-12-31T18:45:00.000+08:00

One of my 2009 resolutions was to celebrate 2010 countdown with the same bunch of people like I did as the previous year. It failed though. =( But it's okay because I just had another best countdown yesterday with 8 crazy humans. :D Thank you to the untrained bodyguards but yet, very efficient. LOL!

Went to Pik Ki's house about 3pm. New Year Party started about 7pm. Went to Pavillion about 9pm. Met up with the bunch of peeps about 10pm. Gone hyper the whole night. Regretted giving the foam to the kid cause that fella used the foam to spray at us at 12am. YOU DON'T WORRY, IF NEXT YEAR GOT CHANCE, WE SAID WE WILL BALAS DENDAM. =DDD Screamed Happy New Year in the count of 3 at the middle of Bukit Bintang about 1am. LMAO. Went to Mamak at 2am. Girl's talk & drank wine at 3am. Prank call at 4am. LOL! == Slept at 6am. Woke up at 8am.

I guess you peeps know who you are. :)

Ki & I. =)
11 years babe! :D
With Coco. =)
Waiting for the party to begin.
With Coco, again. ==
With Von. :)
With Shir :)
Take 2#.
Random posing. xD
Ki's father.
Ki's brother, the fire-maker. LOL!
Shir & Ki. :)
LOL LOL! ==
Replacement for the satay maker, Shir! x]
Wine and beers. =P
Ki was already half-drunk by then. LOL! She was half-drunk with Shir. xD
I hate beer, so it's wine for me please... =)

In conclusion, I had tonnes of fun. =D

Battlefield.

2009-12-30T21:35:00.004+08:00

Just finished watching Beyond the Realm of Conscience after 3 days. LMAO. I lovey-duvey Charvin :D They're super sweeettt! =) Although this drama didn't manage to grab the best drama of the year award, but I do think it's a nice drama. :)

As for my title, it's because watching this show made me realise that everywhere is a battlefield. Everywhere, everyone wants to be at the top or at least, not at the bottom. Hence, everywhere is a very dangerous place with dangerous people. You'll never know when a person changes, never know when they're planning to stab from the back. Not helping when you desperately need it and trying to ruin everything from the back. I couldn't agreed more when one of the actress in the show said that let a beautiful lie be kept. You might not agreed with me because you might think that lying is somehow bad, but honestly, how many of you actually never lie? Think before you try to say bad about someone. How sure are you that you just ain't one of the commit-er? I was really pissed off with a person recently. Do you know that I work really hard to make this happen? And all that person know is to say bad about it. I do accept comments, but just not in that way. But to think back, why do I even hate? As if I've never disagree with one's opinion or idea. It's just human nature. To dislike what others like.

Battlefield indeed. But there's always solution to every matter.

Good luck humans! =)

This Christmas. =)

2009-12-25T19:12:00.011+08:00

24th Dec- Had a sudden outing with Yih Mey to Times Square-Pavillion-Sg Wang. A twosome outing! xD We walked all the way to Pavillion from Times Square and back to Sg Wang after buying our Avatar tickets at Pavillion. == YM bought a black shorts which is really nice. :D Avatar was awesome! The graphics, fuyoh. Darn chun! It deserves at least 9/10. =DDD

25th Dec- Merry Christmas folks! =DDD May this Christmas brings you joy and peace. :) Had lunch with the Maternal family members today at a very nice restaurant. We didn't know my aunt booked the VIP room so we were like jakuns. == LMAO! Anyway, nice lunch with karaoke session! :D

Pictures on the way! :)

Tadaa! ~ :P

Crap, my 3rd husband is coming for New Year countdown! LMAO. ==
The guys in black. XD
The dishes! *yummy* :D
<3
For the first time, believe what your eyes saw. It's a tortoise and yes, I ate it. ==
Cousinssssss. =D *semakin berkurangan* =/
Coco! :)
Me and my handmade tang yuen! Weee~~ xD

New year party and new year countdown up next on schedule! =D

A random thought; FB ZYNGA POKER ROCKS! LOL. == Currently, I only got 636K. Still can't hit 1M like my uncle, sedihhh. =/ haha.

Ever wonder why you're here and not there?